SEE YOU NEXT YEAR!

2008 is gonna be another Black & White year!

- It’s been a lovely year. It's my half full and half empty year! But I think it is more HALF FULL! I love 2008 after all. It’s a year I was back to my basic, the year I’ve started over again, the year I have learn to be more control in my life. I think I need to make a review-type layout. But it’s sort of sad because I probably don’t remember the little things. However, I don’t have many things to say too [Kmas ke nas!].
But, when I think back on the year, yes, there are few things I want to write about, but I want to remember the little things too. So we’ll see.

- I found blog. I just found it while I was having nothing to do at home in Lowell. I didn’t remember how I found it. But now it’s been nearly a year I write blog.

- I left America on the last week of January. I love that time. I missed that time. And my journey was ended at that time! Well, it was like a kid who got lost her way from home! But now, Hey kid, you're back to your mum!

- I did have a very great time on Chinese New Year. I felt a little bit better after the ended journey!

- I had a great time at Kompot. It’s when I got to know Bong Ratha and Bong Phirith. Honestly, I was thinking Bong Mab was a snob [Hehe but, I think I had a snobby face also, most ppl told me so!]. Indeed he is such a lovely bro.

- It was a very surprised birthday I ever had. But being 20, is when I feel having two different persons fighting inside. Being 20 made me feel sick inside, but being 20, if you would notice, you will see how much I changed. teehee. Seriously, a BIG CHANGE!

- I’m not a kind of happy-go-lucky type-of-me anymore. Some say they are so envy of being me, a happy-go-lucky one. But hey girls, now I’m no more. Hehe.

- I got to know more people. They are great. Some are super great.

- I met my long-lost friends and started keeping in touch again.

- I read less. Not like before I could read everyday and I can finish one fiction in 2 or 3 days. But now, after finished one, I have to make my eyes relax.

- I just noticed, recently, I was always about to hit and have motor accident. And these couple days, I couldn’t control on my car wheel also, especially at night. Because of my freaking eyes. But riding motor is easier and I can be more in control more than driving car. Don’t want to guess what is gonna be! Whatever!

- I did well in my job. Ermm, what’s more I have to say?

- I miss them, some people in Modesto, Salida and Riverbank. I’m sure they don’t really miss me or even hate me. Whatever it is, I’m trying to think that I did the right thing, for myself. One big decision for my own life. I did right. I didn’t do anything which harms anyone. Also, I beat the thought of thinking about others more than myself. Too much for self-sacrifice. I’m learning to give myself priority and it’s what J. Ngim, Bong Vy and Bong Sophia kept telling me. Nonetheless, I hope they understands and hope they are fine everyday.

- I miss them, everyone in Lowell. It’s where I learned a lot from them, Bong Bong, they tough me how to be stronger, even thought I’m not yet strong enough like them, independence like them, but I’m a little bit stronger than before. I learned how to be more not-like-kid [At this point, I feel that I not am. but thinking that is how I learn to change myself for better]. Tree of them experienced a lot and a lot. They faced the scariest world alone and stand for their own self. No one lift them up. I do proud of them. After hearing their story, yeah, they are super women!

- I always let the opportunities slipped through my fingers. I used to mention it! Never mind!

- Oh wait! My cooking! I think, it is getting better! I meant it is better than worst! -Wink-

- At last, I went where I want to go. I was a little bit enjoy being there. SHV is always my spot of holiday. But it's not fun at all at the end of the day.

- However, I have a happy ending!

1- I’m a little bit recovers. See? Making space is always a great idea. I enjoy myself with my works even though I am having more and more things to do. But hey, it’s still same old same old. I think I can do just fine. Is it because of my birthstone with me??? Lolz. But wearing it regularly, my mood is so good.

2- The confusion is not yet cleared up, but it goes fine. We become normal. We act like nothing happened. We don’t bring it up and make it clear. We just dug it in the hole. We both are the same. She likes making space just like me and then everything will become normal. We both forgive thing easily, but not really forget. BUT, it doesn’t mean we hold the grudge or sth. Definitely NO. We just don’t want to bring up, that’s all. The past is the past. I’m happy now for that. But I hope she will understand more about me sooner or later. [Damn me, do I wish people to understand about me by doing nothing???]

3- I did have a wonderful Christmas. It’s super excited.

4 - I enjoy joining wedding. You know why? I want to dance. He-he. I don’t know. I just want to dance with our traditional rhyme. I love every beat of it. That’s it. Hey, more weddings to come! Lah.

During 2008, I was revitalizing my own self.
During 2008, I was gaining myself self-esteem.
During 2008, I was getting to know more about true self.
During 2008, I was improving my works.
During 2008, I was getting to know more good people.
During 2008, I was observing people’s mind.

In the beginning of 2009, I hope to see the result, the good result.
I feel want to kiss you now 2009! Lolz

I’ve got a full year Chinese astrology in 2009, the year of Ox.
I read it and it said, most months in 2009 are favorable moths. Hopefully it’s going to be real. Sa thus! Sa thus!
I’m definitely not a horoscope-freak! teehee

All right, guys!

SEE YOU NEXT YEAR! Which is tomorrow!