Hold On

It's going to be my song for a while.

I'm feeling it.

M-Mum.

It's May. And it's Mother's Day. Soon. Time for present. At least, something to make the day for our beloved people. Like, this is my motto now, when you come from a trip, don't forget a little gift. At least, to me. Because maybe I've grown up receiving those from Uncle & Dad. And at this age, I feel like I'm following their footsteps.

So speaking of which, there's something I think it's really cute about it. From the very since, Dad always gets mum a make up kit, which I think why doesn't he just get her a lipstick instead? Because mum doesn't wear make up, except lipstick! Mum never get the reason why he always get her that, though how much he doesn't like when women with a make-up on.



Well, I got presents from mum and mum-to-be bestie.

Happy Mother's Day.
And this blow-your-soul-away song, which is written by Rachel Aldous*, is for my mum & mum-to-be bestie, as well as mothers in the world who loves their children unconditionally.

I’m imperfect but I perfectly love you.
I love you dearly and Happy Mother's Day.




*See Rachel Aldous heart-felt interview here and below is the song called, 'A Mother's Prayer'.

I smile and shake my head, well we all write our own endings and we all have our own scars, but tonight I think I see what it's all about.

And I'm not gonna write it down. I'm saving them in my head.

Below is just some craps I want to get it off a little bit, which there are two things I'm really obsessed about:

1- Marriage & Pregnancy & Babies. I'm incredibly obsessed with it. Not because I want to get married, but I want to feel how it is to have a small living creature inside my tummy and how it is and how stress it is to be a master of everything with the new life. I want a change, really. I'm dying to experience it. Esp, when working on a new project related to it, I'm all for it. Anyway, so how to have baby without getting marriage? Single mom, i mean? Which is very INSANE, I know.

2- Health. Be aware of your well-being. Seek balance. We can't do anything without having a good health and I just realized it's very, very, and very important. So take a good care of yourself. Do regular check-up. Disease is everywhere and Stress is the worst of all in this new generation which lead to other illness. So, don't overwork yourself. Limit. Less ambition. Be Content. It's not fun when you're sick.

Anyway.

Homecoming by Vienna Teng.

This girl is really something. Epic.
After a long tiresome day, her songs calm my nerves.
And I'm feeling this beautiful song.

I just want to
be living as I'm dying
just like everybody here
just want to know my little flicker of time is worthwhile
and I don't know where I'm driving to
but I know I'm getting old
and there's a blessing in every moment every mile

How far do I have to go to get to you...

My birthday was 3 days ago. So I’m 23 turning to 24. I don’t like the number, I tell you. heehee... Will anyone care to tell me how it was like being 24, 25 and 26? I want to know. I wish I could have done something I want to do, but well, I’ve now grown addicted to the things I’m doing. It’s non-stop and there’s no point of turning back. And I care no more.

Well, nothing comes out from my losing brain. And I feel like everything around me is losing but I tempt to get attached with the current busy life. It’s been years I said it a lot to my people, “Sorry, I’m busy” which concerns me that I might end up living in this life forever which I don’t want to. Because I want to see the light until I reach the end of the tunnel. I’m still walking in it. No light. And. Pretty dark. When I bump into something, like wall and it hurts a lot, but there’s nothing I can do but keep walking and finding ways. It’s pretty sick.

Despite of everything, people do have some moments for themselves.
So I still have fun and lovely times and happiness.

What has in store for me this year? I don’t know. But I want to achieve the things I’m trying to do. I’ve never achieved anything in life, but knowing I’m trying my best, I still want to do more and know more and learn more and fail more and hurt more and hope more and especially, love more. I want to experience all those things a person who I’m looking up to goes through.

And I love these songs a lot.

*** At KGC for works and family matters. Right now, I think a lot about my dad, my uncle, and my bestie.

because even when I was flat broke, You made me feel like a million bucks...

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When I'm obsessed, I'm really obsessed.

Talking about music, i'm a huge fan of country.
And recently, i've been obsessed with Brandi Carlile I found in my playlist. I downloaded it after hearing it's played in an American drama TV series, "Grey's Anatomy". I have this DVD set and not yet watched, except that I don't know where I misplaced it.

I REALLY LOVE HER, BRANDI CARLILE!!!

Her voice is really rich, growly, soothing and amazing. All her songs in each album are great and beautiful. I love' em all.

Though she's a gay, but what's the point?
I found that Gay/Lesbian have a great talent. Take Elton John and Ellen for example.

She's in interview.




Brandi shares her fav books and Cds

Dedicated to MakMak...

I Turn To You
by Christina Aguilera




When I'm lost in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way, when I'm scared losing ground
When my world is going crazy you can turn it all around
And when I'm down you're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got

For a shield, from the storm for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

When I lose the will to win
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again
I can do anything 'cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend you're always on my side
Giving me faith taking me through the night

For a shield, from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong and for the will to carry on
For everything you do I turn to you yeah

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
For truth that will never change for someone to lean on
But for a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who I can run to oh I turn to you

For a shield from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you.

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And last night, I re-read “For One More Day” by Mitch Albom, lent by Nathary. But I read only the parts “The times mum stood for me” and “The times I didn’t stand for mum”

Btw, hope you had a wonderful Mother's day.

And I did.

Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Woah, woah
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now, I just need you now

Oh baby, I need you now





Boy it's been all this time
And I can't get you off my mind
And nobody knows it but me

I stare at your photograph
Still sleep in the shirt you left
And nobody knows it but me

Everyday I wipe my tears away
So many nights I've prayed for you to say

[Chorus]
I should've been chasing you
I should've been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
I should've said all the things that I kept inside of me
And maybe I could've made you believe
That what we had was all we'd ever need

My friends think I'm moving on
But the truth is I'm not that strong
And nobody knows it but me

And I've kept all the words you said
In a box underneath my bed
And nobody knows it but me

But if you're happy I'll get through somehow
But the truth is that I've been screaming out

[Repeat Chorus]

I should've been chasing you
You should've been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
Oh you should've said all the things
That I kept inside of me
And maybe you could've made me believe
That what we had girl
Oh that what we had, what we had
It was all we'd ever need
It was all we'd ever need

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The Reason I Go On

…When I'm feeling down
The mention of your name
It lifts my spirit up.
It makes me carry on,
When I don't have the strength
Your faith can heal me.
Like the sun that shines
You gave me light to see….


I really love this song. It helps me sleep peacefully at night. For all Celine Dion songs, besides its beautiful meaning, I feel like flying in the sky while listening. She always and for always has an amazing voice.

I wish I could have someone to lift me up when I’m feeling down. I really do.
For these past months I’ve been feeling so isolated and left-out. I got no one at all for sharing my inner emotion. Is it the true feeling of growing older?

I doubt of the reason of everyone which make them to go on with life.
Can anyone tell me?

So I don’t really know what to write more here. Maybe about book again? Well, yeah I’m currently reading Snow Flower and The Secret Fan by Lisa Lee which Nathary lends me. I tell you I really have hard times of putting this book down.


Because of this book, I’m starting to realize about my true feeling of being so emotional, left-out and lonely.

While reading each part of this book, I got so countless things in mind. As well, I also got many comments and reaction to the story. I wish I could collect my thought and write the plot and on what I think about this story. But I have hard time of recollect or remember what I’ve read, just like when I listen to something through one ear and leave by another.

Anyway, I just updated my twitter. But honestly, I don’t really have idea what Twitter is all about. Still updating though.

I really and desperately wanna go to beach. If J.Nha can't go with me, I might consider to go alone. Umm Perhaps. Perhaps.

Musics Season

I did check on billboard.com. A long list of music albums is going to be released in this fall. And yeh some of my favorite artists’ upcoming album is slated to release next month. I can’t wait to grab them all.

- Album David Archuleta will be released on 11 November. I guess his debut single, Crush, is going to be featured in this album too.

- The debut album from David Cook will be released on 18 Nov. I love his rendition of Mariah Carey’s “Always Be My Baby”.

- Hah! My favorite country pop artist, Taylor Swift, is having her second studio album, Fearless, is slated for release on 11 Nov too. Her beautiful song I can’t stop myself from listening is “Teardrops on my guitar”. For her upcoming album, I’m waiting to listen to “Breathe” duet with Colbie Caillat, my favorite artist too.

***

Crush – David Archuleta



Teardrops on my guitar – Taylor Swift

Only Reminds Me Of You...

A beautiful love song from a filipino artist which will blow your heart away...

By: My favorite band MYMP - Make Your Momma Proud! lolz

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Thank my 5steps member, Nicolo, for sending me this link of beautiful song!

Still when I'm a mess I still put on a vest with an S on my chest

Listening to: Superwoman

Everywhere I'm turning

Nothing seems complete

I stand up and I'm searching

For the better part of meI hang my head from sorrow

Slave to humanity

I wear it on my shoulders

Gotta find the strength in me

---

Cause I am a Superwoman

Yes I am

Yes she is

Still when I'm a mess

I still put on a vest

With an S on my chest

Oh yes

I'm a Superwoman

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For all the mothers fighting

For better days to come

And all my women, all my women sitting here trying

To come home before the sun

And all my sisters

Coming together

Say yes I will

Yes I can

Cause I am a Superwoman

Yes I am

Yes she is

Still when I'm a mess

I still put on a vest

With an S on my chest

Oh yes

I'm a Superwoman

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When I'm breaking down

And I can't be found

And I start to get weak

Cause no one knows

Me underneath these clothes

But I can fly

We can fly, Oooohh

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Cause I am a Superwoman

Yes I am

Yes she is

Still when I'm a mess

I still put on a vest

With an S on my chest

Oh yes

I'm a Superwoman

Chet Prokan Album Release from Javelin Records

I got the Javelin Records' debut Album CD for almost 2 months but I haven't listened yet! No, I meant I've already listented sometimes when my colleagues took it from me and played it.

Just today I found it in my desk case and gonna bring it home to listen tonight.

Thank Mr. Veasna for sending me a copy. I really appreciate it.

I really appreciate their work.

You can visit their homepages on http://www.javelinrecords.com/

Here's the my interview scripts with Mr. Kung Veasna in english.

05/Mar/08

- What have inspired you to start the label?
Our inspiration is simply derived from our undying passion and love for good music.

- When and how did Javelin Record first start?
Javelin Records in its humble beginning was first established in a room in a basement by two individuals who share a passion for music and now three years later has emerged into a full pledge studio that is recognized by all citizens within the city of Lowell.

- How many members?
Javelin Records currently consist of but not limited to nine staff members and five artists, we are always looking to expand and recruit new talents.

- What is the significance of Javelin Record’s name? How did you get that name?
Well first off for those of us whom aren't aware of what a javelin is, please allow me to explain. A Javelin is a spear like object that is made up of either a metal or fiberglass material used in a track and field type event; it is used in a Javelin Throw competition. A competition measures the distance of an athlete's ability to throw the object as far as he or she can.
Translated to music, Javelin Records provides opportunities for any aspiring singer, songwriter, producers etc... Etc... A chance is heard by the general public. Although we provide you with all the tools and training necessary to be in the public eye, how far you throw the object is entirely up to you.

- How would you describe your Record Company?
We are a very open minded record label, hence our slogan “Music without boundaries ". Simply put we are open to any suggestions from our friends and fans just as long as it is positive and sounds good. Any language and style of genre is welcome, we do everything from country to hip-hop. Here at Javelin we believe that music is universal, we are confident that we have a little bit of something for everybody regardless of age or musical preferences. And also we are primarily a family oriented company; suffice to say that a majority of our music is suitable for any age group.

- What is Javelin Record mission?
Our mission is simply to provide the Cambodian public as well as our Americans audience with the best in quality entertainment.

- Could you tell us some information about your artists?
Well, here is a very brief overlay of our featured artists, for more information please check out our website javelinrecords.com

Khmer Thug
An up and coming Khmer rapper/songwriter whose personal experiences are reflected in his lyrics. Currently he has two albums released, the debut album “Confessions” and the sophomore album “The biggest mistake”.
San Pisith
An emerging star in the Khmer rock frontier, Sith will eventually be the bridge between Khmer and English influences. Sith is a featured artist on Javelin’s upcoming compilation album.
Ven Chan Sreymuch
With her unique singing voice, Much is a new artist with songs touching on the subjects that everyone else was afraid to even consider. She is also featured on the highly anticipated compilation album by Javelin.
Ven Chan Sayla
Citing traditional music as his influence, Sayla plans to take the charm of the old school, combine it with some new class beats, and become the best singer he can be. He is also on the compilation album.
Morn Sovanthida
A former member of the group “4 Strong”, Thida is the newest artist under Javelin. It’ll be interesting to see where Javelin will take her, since this is her first time working with the U.S.

- Are you currently working on any exciting projects?
Aside from preparing for our official launch and first debut compilation album in the next coming weeks, we were fortunate enough to work on a song for the soundtrack for a very talented Cambodian movie director by the name of Tim Pek for his new upcoming movie titled Annoyed (Rou Chance) http://annoyedmovie.com/ or http://youtube.com/watch?v=TS2vvWoZYc4 to see the trailer. Look forward to seeing this out soon.

- When is your first single released? What is your new release name?
We will be releasing our first full length compilation CD in USA by April. The CD is named “Chet Prokhan.”

- If there were some albums copies with no copyright in market, what would you do?
If that were to occur, we will allow our legal team to assess the damage in the matter and deal with the situation accordingly by U.S and International Copyrights law. We do not wish nor look forward to disputing with any other record companies or entertainment entities, but if deemed necessary legal actions will be taken.

- Do you intend to make your Javelin Record become a well-known record company in Cambodia?
We can only hope that the Cambodian public in Cambodia will be as kind and supportive as our audience and friends in America. We welcome the opportunity to compete and entertain alongside all other great companies before us.

- When will Javelin Record be on tour to Cambodia? How do you feel about that?
We would love the opportunity to be able to someday tour in the great country of Cambodia, but as of right now our main focus is making a name for ourselves here in the United States and in Canada.

- What more should we expect from Javelin Record in the near future?
New music, new videos, new singers, we hope to be able to bring something new and fresh for the Cambodian people to enjoy and be proud of. Not only are we working on modern and traditional Khmer music right now, we are also in the process of putting together English and English/Khmer mix CDs and songs for your upcoming viewing and listening pleasure.

- Any last words for ours listener?
Yes, thank you all and especially to all our special friends and fans for taking your time and interest in our new and humble company, we only hope that you will continue to support us in our quest for making entertaining and enjoyable original feel good music that you can be proud of. We hope to be able to elevate the status of not just Khmer but all Asian American music to a higher status that will be accepted by international (American) standard regardless of neither language nor genre.

Thank for your time!
Thank you for having us!