2010 began, a drama has been steadily unfolding. I'm not entirely pleased with this. It seems harsh and hard, to say nothing of disappointing.
I suddenly feel like, every couple year, I have to fall back and start everything over.I t's ridiculous just to think of it. I feel like, "Shit! I keep coming back!". But keep telling myself not to lose my hope, which is what a friend of mine seriously told me once, "Don't lose yourself! Don't lose your hope!"
Well, I got a question for myself, which is what I have to think about "How to" broaden my ability and capacity on something I really put my head and heart on. Ok it's a very hard one.
Btw, right now I'm thinking about Kafka Tamura, who sees Miss Saeki as a smart person, which is exactly what I see in a certain person.
“She is very different from you, she overcome all kinds of obstacles, and not what you’d call normal obstacles, either. She knows all kinds of things you’re clueless about; she’s experienced a range of emotions you’ve never felt. The longer people live, the more they learn to distinguish what’s important from what’s not. She’s had to make a lot of critical decisions, and has seen the results. Again, she’s very different from you. You’re only a child who’s lived in a narrow world and experienced very little. You’ve worked hard to become stronger, and in some areas you actually have. That’s a fact. But now you find yourself in a new world, in a situation you’ve never been in before. It’s all new to you, so no wonder you feel confused.”
Quoted from Kafka On The Shore
by Haruki Murakami
Keep playing this quote in my head, helps slowing down my pace of anxiety and vitalize my hope!by Haruki Murakami
I'm also thinking of something fun, like going to swim with my ladies or play badminton to reduce some stress and anxiety. Maybe only after that activation I'm in. The late of FEB, probably. I hope I can make it! Yeh Yeh!
