How far do I have to go to get to you...

My birthday was 3 days ago. So I’m 23 turning to 24. I don’t like the number, I tell you. heehee... Will anyone care to tell me how it was like being 24, 25 and 26? I want to know. I wish I could have done something I want to do, but well, I’ve now grown addicted to the things I’m doing. It’s non-stop and there’s no point of turning back. And I care no more.

Well, nothing comes out from my losing brain. And I feel like everything around me is losing but I tempt to get attached with the current busy life. It’s been years I said it a lot to my people, “Sorry, I’m busy” which concerns me that I might end up living in this life forever which I don’t want to. Because I want to see the light until I reach the end of the tunnel. I’m still walking in it. No light. And. Pretty dark. When I bump into something, like wall and it hurts a lot, but there’s nothing I can do but keep walking and finding ways. It’s pretty sick.

Despite of everything, people do have some moments for themselves.
So I still have fun and lovely times and happiness.

What has in store for me this year? I don’t know. But I want to achieve the things I’m trying to do. I’ve never achieved anything in life, but knowing I’m trying my best, I still want to do more and know more and learn more and fail more and hurt more and hope more and especially, love more. I want to experience all those things a person who I’m looking up to goes through.

And I love these songs a lot.

*** At KGC for works and family matters. Right now, I think a lot about my dad, my uncle, and my bestie.

Another month, another story. Or anyway, a very similar story…

January was great. What I mean is everything is up and down normally, like how life supposed to be. And here come February. Nothing special. But I like how they say February is the month of love. Look, for the first day of Feb, I've heard the best news of marriages here and there, especially for my bestie.

L: Hey, you know what?
Me: What?
L: I've already passed.
Me: What?
L: I've passed the EXAM.
Me: What exam?
L: Our marriage!
Me: What??!!! Seriously?
L: Yes!
Me: Tell me more.
L: The date is already set. 17th March.
Me: What?? This fast?
L: Yeah. and one more thing.
Me: What?
L: I must have baby by Rabbit year!
Me: WHAT???
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It's a big surprise. She made me say "what! what! what!" a lot, which in khmer, I was like, "Ei ke?"

I told mum right away after I got home and she brought the topic of how she thinks I'm lesbian again. Alright. Great.

Anyway, birthdays are in the air. You know it just smells good, except that we're aging 1 more year. I have a plan for my day, but knowing definitely that this month is going to be another hectic month, forget it.

But nonetheless, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, N!!!
My wish is very simple like this... Wish you love, happiness and success.
You have far to go, remember!!! heehee