Sleep in peace when day is done

But I couldn't.

Stress.
As hell.
Weather.
Hot as Hell.

If anyone doubt about where the hell is, I think I could give the answer now.

I wish I could affort for an air-con, while mum and dad enjoy their sky-giant air-con up on the rooftop. I tend to think what I could push Cambodia to South Pole, or Noth Pole, or maybe next to France? where I fancied I could go there once. I love those jazz songs playing while drinking hot coffee, sitting next to the mirror watching the snow fall and chit-chatting about life, or walking along the street full of lights for sightseeing with a Canon in my hand. Ok stop it!

It makes me miss my Christmas time back in SFC with K and her parents, walking along the bay, seeing people hugging and kissing, feeling the cold breeze and enjoying the nice view of city. It was amazing.

I imagine what if Cambodia has 4 seasons like most countries do? Isn't it great if we have autumn and winter here? Umm I really miss my good old day when we cuddled up all together under a blanket, watching three horror movies in a row and froze our spine through the whole damn night until the snow stopped by the morning came. Oh I miss that time. Warm-hugging a big damn thing like P is a great feeling! And his brother, H, who likes fighting with me non-stop, always tried to close my eyes and helped me not to get scared with the bloody movies.
What play boys they are! Miss' em.

I really miss those short times.
I fall in love with those cities like others do.
I enjoyed the night there.
Where we had fun...
and shared the moments.

Stitch your stress away

I knew - but I wish I didn't know. Feel like a FOOL. Been so down but luckily I've been too busy to think about. Throw it aside. Pretend it's ok.

Well, I've never done any shopping for months. Clothes. Shoes. Stuffs. Bags (mostly received as gift). But today after the last task of delivery done by early morning, I've been spending an hour at Sovanna Mall and watched 4D again and cut down my stress a lot. Despite of my own stuffs, I got little shoes and warm hat for Bee & new-born Belle at EXPRESS (I love Express now!). For always, I only got dresses for Bee, so this time, shoes.

I always adore laces and knitting so much. So I couldn't help when I saw those cute finishing of its knitting. This is why it caught my eyes. Not that I can buy something like this everywhere, so bought it regardlessly. I actually want to keep it as sample, but I don’t want to do so, because I bought it for them (But how could she wear knitting shoes & hat during summer?)

I know how to knit it, but I just don't know how to knit the flower by layers like this, esp this exacting same beautiful flower on these tiny shoes. If I know how to knit this flower, I will be able to make it as clips or bows for my both little cousins, and… and future daughter. Whaha!

Will google more for the crochet pattern for this knitting.

Okay, I'm officially broke now.
Outing is no-no!

The Little Prince

I finished a children book called, 'The Little Prince' by Saint Exupery last month and I re-readed during Khmer New Year days. Reading this book helps me withdrawing from the chaotic world of grown-up people for a while, and feeling as an innocent child again.

It's such a great philosophy kind of book.

The best quotes of this book I found very interesting are:

- It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye!
-It is time you had wasted for it which made it is so important!
-You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed.
You're responsible for it…

To be exact, every parts of this book teaches us something.
And it mays break my heart a little bit.

Especially, the part the little prince lands in the desert on Earth. And he meets a cute little fox in a sand dune and tries to get the fox to come to him. The fox will not, because he’s not tamed. He explains this, saying, “To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we will need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world.”

I acknowledge the fact that we create the needs that we fill. We don't need one thing or another inherently. It is when we find ourselves needed something or someone, we just forget the fact that it's once like a bargain of the needs that we willingly become involving with.

Anyway.

I love this review question of a person in my Goodreads:

"One novel metaphor of looking at life and love through the eyes of an alien child. Beautiful philosophy of life and love communicated here, the wonder and the mystery of it. The boy's innocent, yet loyal relationship with the flower, leaves me with the question: Should we love only those whom are deserving of love, whom are capable of loving us back? Or do we love whole-heartedly whether we get love in return or not? And, how do we replenish the well of love if we keep giving out and do not receive it back?"

She.She.She.She

1- L and N are in relationship more than 5 years and ready to get married in few years. N just spilled his past and said sorry about his lying that N is his first love. He said he actually attracted to her on the first place because she looks a lot like his first love. L asked if he's still missing the girl and trying to find her. He said no. Instead he said he's always happy with L and there's no reason to find his first love. L said after she heard about it, she was in big shock and found it hard to breathe because she believed that she was N's first love and she loves him and never give a second thought of flirting or seeing somebody else. She can't believe that N had lied her all along. She wonders why N didn't tell her in the first place. She wouldn't mind about it at all as long as N is honest with her and being straight-forward with her. But he just told her now, since they've been together more than 5 years already?
She doesn't know what to do now.

2- S and V are in relationship 3 years and also plan to get married next year. But she just found out that V is still seeing his ex. When she asked him, he said they're just friends. But when she's online on FB, she got the feeling that he's still missing his ex. She has no idea what to do. Break up or not? She's not sure now that she's the one or not. She's not sure if her boyfriend still loves her or not. She's really freaking out and heart-breaking. Or should she sit and talk with him by asking straight where the relationship heading now? She is in the mess.


3- D and P are dating for 6 months. And P proposed D and promises that he will get his parents to go to D's parents to get permission to get married. D needs some more times to think about it. D loves P, but she doesn’t love the way P does. P is kind of person who's proud of himself and love flirting around with others. He said he's just like flirting, but only D that he loves. D also dislike the fact that P always keep promising to do this and that for D, but he never makes it happens once. So she's not sure if P really loves her or not. Because he sometimes seems to be serious about his love with her, but some other time, she just feels that she's just a fool. Now she thinks about giving him a chance or just ending this relationship, but she can't deny that she loves him.

4- T and Some Guy are seeing each other for 1 and haft years. But now he's seeing his ex. He told T that he somehow still misses his ex, but he's also love T. He admitted that he's kept seeing his ex because they've decided to be friend. But seem like it brought back old memories of them. After knowing all about it, she decided to break up and move on. After 6 months of breaking up, T is seeing another guy. But her ex was back and told her that he just figured it out that T is the only one person he loves. He can't live with T. Being with T, he's happy. T said she still loves her ex somehow, but she's now with another new guy and she's his new boyfriend's first love. And she's happy with him. She asked how to do?