Heat which is stirring up and you give up

Taken at Chow Hotel

The height of endurance is tumbling down with a great deal of massive chunk weighs down on the most buoyant small spirit. The unbearable moment start arising which is almost burst out as it seems, the heat of scourge is heating up relentlessly. It might be the really end of endurance. But what would happen if it’s being stopped unexpectedly? by nothing else, but self-commitment? The self-commitment which is not worth a bit of scrap of paper. Perhaps, it’s at least worth, but what happen if it’s just something to do with the act of taking advantage, which you’ve been known all that long? But the heat of being taken advantage is getting more and more intolerable.

At every turn, regard with commitment and responsibility, you let yourself being taken advantage all a long the way, while hoping you can muster all your strength to fight back the wickedness hidden beneath the imposture faces. The thought of transforming to be selfish is appeared as much as a impossibility to be accomplished. That’s the truth of you. Don’t try to change yourself to be someone you are not if it’s for worst. Remain being what you can be in your right way.

But you found yourself keep thinking a lot and turned it over and over in your head about the things you’ve given up just to be here, the choice you made and must be continued to make, based upon the unavoidable circumstance including with the promise of selflessness.

Above all, there’s something to be said about not looking back and having no regrets with the path you wanted is not being taken. While being on a current shot, You give up the hope you’ve been given million times and all the possibility of chances which has been promised to give. That’s not worth to wait. Keep walking on a path you are walking, which mean keep being someone who can be taken advantage, and ones who took it from you, thinking you are just stupid. And you are. You really are!

If it’s called Maturity

I want to understand teenagers and young people's mind. But the more I try, the less I understood. I've crossed this phase too and I should have understood, but I just didn't. It's utterly amazed me two times already. And in result, it put me all in doubt.

Before, I worked on Valentine's day research and I was overwhelmed by those study cases, and now again, my friend's brother, which incredibly shocked me woodenly. I just think that these kinds of things happen only in movies, not in real life. Moreover, it's unbelievable that it could happen to my friend.

So all in all, I just don't understand how young people's minds work. They claimed many times that they're mature enough to know what the right and wrong is, but look at the way they behave, is this called maturity? Having affair with boyfriend and girlfriend? Doing something that give their parent heart attack? Running away from home just because of breaking up with boyfriend and girlfriend? Stealing all their parent's property and saying that they will come back with a lot of money? Is this really called maturity? Putting their family in a nervous breakdown?

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

Just got the pictures from Bong Thuch before yesterday and we tend to get them print for grandma to see. We surely know that she must be happy to see their pictures.


Look like they have accustomed themselves to the weather already. Think they enjoy being in snow too.

Be healthy my three little cousins!

Dash it all!

It's been a crazy time. It's been a time I've found myself in utter madness. At workplace, I've burned all my burdens in the fireplace where it's on my frowning-face. Think I've been changed too much to be someone who is not exactly me. I hate this fact of my self-altering. It's utterly aging me. It's extremely overwhelming me to death.

People, people, why are you such crazy? Why do you need to be such creep? Why do you need to be such dramatic? Why do you need to be such bluff? Why do you need to take advantage of one another? Why do you need to be such people who know only your own need? Why do you need to be a Saint while you are a real devil? Why? Why? Oh, how I do hate such people like this!!!

But just took a look at Weekend Horoscope this early morning and found that it’s partly so right!

- Pisces Horoscope Weekly of 23rd-29th March ...

A week for introspection. This is time to take a pause, look behind, and assess your progress. Take a break and analyze the things happened earlier and make necessary adjustments to create harmony. The things may not be like that as you want. So avoid being pushy or to impose your thoughts on others. At job, your spirit is high. However, your running high-energy may spoil the things. You are advised to focus your energy in the right direction with patience. Success will be yours. Seniors are cooperative but result oriented.

Financially, it is time to make adjustments as the things may not go according to plan. Sudden expenses may make you thoughtful. It will be difficult to avert your expenditures. It is also suggested to take care against loss or theft.

Domestic peace will prevail. You will like to give a new comfortable look to your home now. Decorating it with plants and greenery around will make you feel high. Romance will be eclipsed due to other factors of life. If single, then this week is positive for searching a right partner for you. Avoid being eager as it will spoil the things proceed into right manner. You will have a remarkable opportunity to meet new romantic partners. Even though you will be at home a bit more than usual, the time you will spend socializing seems to be highly productive.

And Horoscope for today is...

You'll have to call someone's bluff. If you don't have full knowledge of some issue and you're behind the eight ball you mustn't cringe when someone tries to overpower you in conversation. You don't necessarily have to have all the facts at your fingertips to win the battle. Postpone the discussion and return to the negotiating table armed with better information.

Enjoy yourself and the people around you, just take care not to take anyone or even yourself too seriously right now, it's more a energy of play and adventure rather than seriousness and commitment.

So this is what you CAN do

Reading Nathary recent post under the title of Department Of Twists And Turns about what she CAN do and what she WANTS, it gave me the realization that I have just done with what I CAN do, but NOT what I WANT. What I have done has nothing to do with the Certificate, but something to do with my ability of doing it. The point is, I CAN do what I CAN, even though it is not what I WANT! But still, I allowed my devotion to the things I'm doing and I want to see what I CAN do to be happened.

So here we go, Nathary, you are not alone and neither I am. We are on the same way of "What We CAN Do!"

I'm glad I have a chance to meet her in person. Because there is something I always love about Madam Chanthy is whenever I saw her in TV, to me, she just looks like an Apsara and Srey Krob Leak at Angkor Wat Temple and Prasat Bonteay Srey.

Just look at the way she speaks with her well sage manner, she's completely a very Traditional Khmer Lady. I do love her modest, gentle and soft manner.
Well, all in all, I love everything which is different from me. Ha-ha

All my growth and development led me to believe that if you really do the right thing, and if you play by the rules, and if you've got good enough, solid judgment and common sense, that you're going to be able to do whatever you WANT to do and what you CAN do with your life.

Morning my toothbrush!

Voilà! It’s a little bit embarrassing and silly to write, but I just couldn’t help. I love this morning moment of being startled. So here it goes…

I woke up a little bit early today, and hopped for the shower, but I immediately left bathroom holding a bunch of 5 toothbrushes walking toward mum and dad’s room…
Me: Mum! How come there are a lot of toothbrushes the same as mine?
Mum: I bought!
Me: I know. But can you tell me which color is mine?
Mum: What? You didn’t remember?
Me: Yeah, I’ve just used it for only 2 days, so I don’t remember! Btw, are you the one who threw my old toothbrush away?
Mum: The green one is yours and yes I did. Why?
Me: Really? But it still can be used, helloooo!
Mum: So you want to use two toothbrushes at a time?
Me: There’s nothing wrong with that right? Just whenever I feel my gum is weak, I could use the new one because it’s for the sensitive teeth, and when I feel I want to brush my teeth harder than ever, I will use my old one!
Mum: Too late! [Giggling]
Me: Arrgghh! Ok, so tell me, why did you buy all the new toothbrushes the same as my new one?
Mum: I don’t know. Your Pe said yours is comfortable and asked me to buy one for him, but I bought it for everyone.
Me: Oh I see. I know I know…. Huh? Wait! How could he know it’s comfortable, unless he have used mine?
Mum: Ahhhh… Come on! How come? Impossible! It’s disgusting!
Me: That is what I also think.
Pe: Yes! I’ve used it twice times already!
Mum + Me: What?????? [Startled]
Me: W-w-w-What did you just say?

Oh la la! Mum and I burst into a very hard laugh… Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaha

Me: So you see mum? Everything is possible for your husband!
Mum: Then tell me who my husband is?

Me: [Pointing to Pe walking smilingly toward bathroom] Your both sons’ father!

Mum: And what’s about you?
Me: His very, very good daughter! He-he
* Pa=Pe * I usually called him Pe! teehee
ME: [Shouting] Here is the deal, Pe, shall we change? I want your new blue color. I love blue more than green! Ok, deal!
Pe: No!
Me: Why not?
Pe: Not now.
Me: --- [Puffed!] So did you just mean that we can change after you use it?

Oh, my!

Not so first time that I have such shot of shock yet ridiculous moments. It’s amusing, at least, for me and my family. To me, the act and the sense of sharing, much as embarrassing things, is completely and naturally sweetest and lovingly thing in the world. And I’m sucker for it.

You listen to a piece of music and it will remind you of something

I indeed was not listening to any pieces of music, but I was just finding Shakespeare's quotes, and it reminded me of something too, it's Agatha Christie.

Agatha Christie is well-known as English Queen of Crime and her novels particularly featuring detectives Hercule Poirot and Miss Jane Marple. But I've not yet read Miss Jane Marple's series. As far as I know, most of her books, especially her best-selling books, always written along with William Shakespeare's quotes or epigraphs and even his songs. So I guess she must be a very big fan of Shakespeare.

I've read her two series books in Hercule Poirot's series which are and Sad Cypress and Murder In Mews attached with other 3 different short story which are, The Incredible Theft, Dead Man's Mirror and Triangle at Rhodes.

I like Sad Cypress better. But though, I still didn't really get the meaning of Sad Cypress related to the whole story. But here is what I just got to know is the title comes from a song from Shakespeare...

Come away, come away, death,
And in sad cypress let me be laid;
Fly away, fly away breath;
I am slain by a fair cruel maid.
My shroud of white, stuck all with yew,
O, prepare it!
My part of death, no one so true
Did share it.

I was immediately impressed by reading the first page of it, which is the answer of the question of "Do you feel guilty or not?"

Sad Cypress is written about Elinor Carlisle, who has been accused for crime of her aunt's death, Laura Welman and subsequent death of victim, Mary Gerrard. But after the Poirot's investigation and a sequence in court, the truth was revealed.

Actually, the story was not simple as I explained above, but it's utterly impressive. Just that I didn't really remember the story, since it's been a very, very long time read. teehee

When I look down, I miss all the good stuffs and when I look up, I just trip over things!

Every now and then I miss sewing and knitting.

I miss all of that, my knitting items, knitting needles, woolen threads, cotton threads and my pattern sample papers. Well, it’s all lost. But the only one thing I terribly miss the most is I miss how to knit.

I, coffeeaholic, miss the taste of Starbucks terribly.

Dim Sum had became my favorite food and I miss it badly. I missed the time we all slept in the car waiting around Chau Chow City Restaurant for more than 2 hours until they open at 8am.

I like quotes and daily life quotes in fortune cookie is pretty much fun to read though.

Ever seen the TWEEN-HALF-MOON??? Here it is! lolz
Taken almost 4 years ago on the way back from Parksé and Champasak in the middle of night! As well, it reminds me the trip to Laos and Rattanakiri! The best yet extremely fun adventure ever! Oh, It was the first time that I could see so many stars! MANY! It looked like a large flat basket of rices! I hope to post some pictures of those places later.

Wheeww I've refused to get some works to do, so I could get my eyes relax. However I didn't choose to read, but watched a lot of movies instead. I should be able to make it since it's been a million years promise to myself. But I've never broken a record to watch movies more than two, so it wows me as hell when I've done so far more than 10 for this 3 months! But so sad I couldn't watch all the movies which were nominated in Oscar like I've decided to. But it's not bad at all since I've seen Slumdog Millionaire and some very old movies.

- City of God
- Lord of The Rings
- Lord of War
- Wall-E
- Eternal Sunshine of Spotless Mind
- Another Cinderella Story
- Sweet Home Alabama
- I'm sorry I love you
- Slumdog Millionaire
- Australia
- Wedding (Soon to be finished)

While spending time watching those movies, playing Sin Sisamut songs is on top of my playlist. Ha-ha. [Don't laugh at me!]

It is bicycling baby!

The hardest part of raising a child is teaching them to ride bicycles. A shaky child on a bicycle for the first time needs both support and freedom. The realization that this is what the child will always need can hit hard.

~Sloan Wilson~

How old are you now? You look too old now!

Do you get the meaning? heehee... This was my birthday song which they sang to me! Ha-ha!

Things didn’t go simple as I expected! Works were just done a night before my day, and I was thinking about taking leave and sleep at home, so that I would let my day goes by. But it would be fool if I did this. So I woke up by the ring of few happy-birthday-to-you messages! I was a bit late, because I waited to Dak Bat at home and got the wheels fixed after that. Then...... When I reached office around 8h30, The start kicked off! The extremely-excited moment happened... and keep coming along for the whole day!

The group of thieves who sneaked into my office at night! Yet it’s a really big surprise! Bong Pich, Bong Ratha, Bong Kma and Setha sneaked into my office to blow balloons and decorated all over my desk written as"Love you!" and "Hate you the most in this world!" Lolz. Hang on! it doesn’t look like birthday thingy at all, but wedding, bro! But, I still can’t thank you enough! It’s the biggest surprised birthday ever!

Look! They left the track by setting up their pictures as my desktop wallpaper! Ha-ha...

My pigpen looks neat and nicer after the group of thieves cleaned it up! Ha-ha

I really, really, really cannot thank 4 of the thieves enough!

Snap! Snap! Snap! Too early to photograph!

I got a bunch of flowers sent to my office, I was speechless and couldn’t figure out what the flower was all about and a bit rattled by the delivery guy blamed me for not pick up the phone. He-he I just realized that it was sent from Bong Thuch! Ha-ha. Then I could figure out why everyone was so rude and asked me to go back to my room while waiting for Bong Ny to buy coffee together! Because they wanted me to pick up the phone from the delivery guy. OMG! Ha-ha A Big Kiss for Jé Jé!

We had lunch together at pizza company. But I didn’t expect the waiters sing out loud and walk toward me!

It made me feel like A KID! Everyone was staring at our table! But it’s ok because I sat in a place that faced to the wall! He-he! There were two foreigners came to great me too. One is --- I forgot his name. He helped us to take pictures and wished me all the best. The other one is Johnny West, an international entertainer, came to say Happy Birthday and sang me in a language I didn’t know. He talked with us for a while and exchanged name card, then we ended with a quick peck.

From Bong Kamab! The giver is pig and the receiver is also pig! lolz BIG THANK, bro!

So we are pig family!

After reaching office, I smelled the Gio Armani in my room. Hehe, I could guess the giver already. It’s Bong Pich’s scent. Yah it’s him, he sprayed over Shin Chang, but it was sent from Bong Mao. Love ya, Ms.Aussi! Bong Mao's gift, but Bong Pich's scent! Ha-ha never mind! Bos Bong Mao kor doch bos Bong Pich der, nor? teehee... A big kiss and hug to Ms. Aussie through Facebook!

I felt so grateful when I also got a package of cookie and great wish from Om Chhun, our editorial advisor.

I ended up my wonderful day at Bobor Krouch. But along the way to get there, Sundy, Bong Phos's daughter sang me birthday song by phone. I was back home early to tell what happened on my day to grandma, dad and mum. Then we drank Apple Juice to celebrate my day instead of Champagne! Ha-ha. It’s perfect than I ever expected! An utterly-favorable-day for me! Wait, there is another small party with my hi-school friends on Wed. Can't wait to kick them all!

Thank you everyone for all your messages, calls, mails, gifts [ incl. more gifts-to-come. Hehe] and all your great-wishes!
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25-Feb-09
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