Sometimes, do you have to live your life by chaining up yourself with too much questions and worries?

Questions which begin with 'how', 'where,' or 'when,' are comparatively easy to answer.Those that start with ‘why’ tends to be trickier. For every 'because' there's a 'but.' Usually, too, if you go down this road of inquiry, you find it soon leads to yet another, even bigger 'why?' Like it or not, you now have to scrutinize a bunch of reasons and 'justifications' that you normally allow yourself the luxury of taking for granted. Instead of asking 'why,' try restricting yourself to the slightly less impossible, 'why not?'

And, this is the only word I keep reminding myself.

Well, why not?

I really can't see why, but I try 'giving my all' to the journey rather than holding back and being half-hearted and try putting up with everything and ready to make mistake to be better!

Because I believe as soon as I set off properly, I'll see a dramatic improvement in the scenery. And I'll also be delighted to leave all those 'ifs', 'buts' and 'maybes' so far behind.

And I know it must take long time!

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself in any direction you choose.
You're on your own.
And you know what you know.
You are the guy who'll decide where to go.
~Dr. Seuss

You know you will know

I'm writing this as I'm waiting to take a long bath after my cousin done. We've been cleaning the house for the whole evening and this time we've done with almost every room even our bedroom.

I have to admit that I've never done before. And I think of mum and grandma when I was cleaning up and doing those house chore. You know when I was doing, I think of the way they always do. I was silently amazed and realized how I feel about them. It's like I'm them. I'm growing just like them. And I'm so happy that I'm slowly growing to be them.

When I cleaned the floor, I pictured when I was little, mum, grandma, sister, brothers and I were cleaning our house together. We was actually not be helpful to mum and grandma at all. We just played, like skiing with bubble and chairs. Mum and grandma told us that when we clean, we have to clean it properly. We have to clean the edge of each brick, so that there's no rusting dirt filling up.

When I cleaned the bathroom, I pictured the way they did when I was little. It's when mum and grandma taught me how to sit on the lavatory to poo-poo (teeheee). They had to watch over and told me how to hold and all the jazz. While I was doing the loo, they always clean and scrubbed and polished every edge of stuffs in bathroom and they started to tell me how to clean it again. I didn't really pay attention to what they said, but I just watched and I was like, "Oh yes!" and they said, "Well, you know you will know when you grow up!".

But when I was in high school, I never did any house chore, even washing my own plate. And mum and grandma was worried about how I will become a lady without knowing a thing about doing house chore. And I didn't care. They kept up on me about this thing and I was like, "Well, believe me I'm only like this when I'm with you! When I'm away, I can do everything by my own" and they said, "Really? you know it's called a habit. A bad habit and a bad habit can get better than rule!" And I was like, "No. I believe my bad habit can't always get the better of me! In some degree! hehe!"

Now, I really can do a bit better. I know mum and grandma will be happy if they know I put my effort to do house chore and cook and of course I enjoy doing it. It's like when I'm on my own, I can be more better than I was with what a lady should do.

What I always remember is when mum and grandma always say, "You know you will know when you grow up!"

And I miss them so much now.