Trip to Malaysia was canceled. It's a little bit sad, but I can save a lot of money for mum. I went home today and stayed there for almost a day. I felt so great, I can say!
And, here is what I just figured out.
Sometimes, life feels like a slow, painful trek through a field of mud. Sometimes, it's a merry dance through a meadow of flowers on a warm spring day. What makes the difference? It's not money, as many a miserable millionaire will testify. It's not love, that's sometimes subject to stress. It's the existence of hope that makes us want to celebrate... and the apparent absence of it that creates despair.
And, here is what I just figured out.
Sometimes, life feels like a slow, painful trek through a field of mud. Sometimes, it's a merry dance through a meadow of flowers on a warm spring day. What makes the difference? It's not money, as many a miserable millionaire will testify. It's not love, that's sometimes subject to stress. It's the existence of hope that makes us want to celebrate... and the apparent absence of it that creates despair.
Pheak's camera Canon 40D.
One more thing which give me stress and strain is the sake of happiness.
I've been trying so hard on emotion part. And I'm tired. I feel like I'm not me at all! Because I thought I should change my life. I believed I could let go of something in order to get something new. So that I can make this life grows. But It's definitely unpleasant. And I know this is how life grows. To go through all pain endurance.
BUT, the pain I'm talking here is about missing every elements of my life.
I miss long talk about my days with mum and dad every evening when I get home. hanging out and sharing laugh with friends. riding motorbike in breezy evening with bong Ny and J.Nha. having lunch and evening out with B gang. listening to musics and reading favorite books till mid night. Having fun with bong bong at lunch and night out. Weekend of visiting uncle's home.... etc
I realized that what I'm doing the most is focusing on only one thing and forget about other things in life. Today, I just noticed that a lot of birthdays passed and I missed a lot of it. my friend's birthdays and my friend's graduations.
Isn't it elements of life we should balance and we don't want a single of them drop out like many plates we try to hold it all at once?
I definitely don't want to live alone in this world alone and leave everyone behind like this. I don't want to focus on nothing at all like this. It's unpleasant.
However, I've decided to go away from my comfort zone.
But the thing is I should learn to balance it! I don't want to drop out many plates while I'm trying to hold one. I must figure out how to maintain my life and put all my plates in order!
Okay, what I really want to whine here is I don't see I grow an inch of what I'm trying to do and... I just miss everyone.
2 comments:
Time is precious and we should treasure every single seconds of it.
Balancing every single elements of life is not an easy task, I'm still learning it, too. I'm convinced that you are able to manage them well, somehow not now, but in future, yes you will!
Well, it's never too late for people who decided and desired to fasten and catch back the pace which they left behind.
Evey time, I want to express my negative emotion, the part that I don't like about life. There's always something interfere me, because inner strength is my other best friend. And I know you and every one else have it too, but it grows strong or weak depending on each individual and how much often we refer to it. U gotta get that kind of power, u know.
But at least, you know how you feel, it's good to acknowledge it. It's good coz u're not denial like me.
Live every stage of life u're supposed to live and feel what you feel. Sad, happy, hope and doubt are all the elements in your life. Actually, u don't really miss them.
*Hug*
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