Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Unconfident, Uncertain, Fear and Let it go.

It’s been another same old same old week.

Take a quick run on and off.
On and Off.
On and Off.
Like crazy.
Sleepy and LAZY and Tired. Mostly Lazy.

I wonder how our hectic months to come will be.
More Tired, Sleepy and LAZY?
I'm not gonna care about it.

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I recently don’t really think much about future like I always do, but past. Mostly about people I don’t want to lose, but lost. Anyone who comes to my life. That's all because I always let it goes this way. And that become as a habit.

I think my mind is really complicated and I made things more complicated. I feel sorry, but there’s no other way I can do. Because of Fear and I let it go. I know I always turn away from something I want. I hate when I feel uncertain about something, when I fear about something, when I feel insecure about something, when my head and my heart are on fight.

I don't know why I always refuse to go for it, refuse to see it with heart, refuse to acknowledge different angles in this respect. Suffice to say that I'm not confident enough. My thoughts always take a heavy turn and I know I only see a part of the picture.

I can't stop considering this complex problem, recently, to be exact. I'm trying to sort out my beliefs and feelings from rational answers, but I'm finding myself more confused the longer I sort it out. I'm always somewhat biased here. So try getting another opinion before I make a move I will regret. And I know that there's no point in my trying to be, for example, such a rational scientist when at heart I'm really passionate artist.

Okay, now breath and let it go.
Back to think about career path.
Shake all the hyper-thought away.
Breath hard.
Breath harder. Harder. HARDER.

I'm not gonna think about it again.
I'm not gonna sort it out again.
--until l I have to.

5 comments:

Chanvetey said...

Humm. . . Hi Panharath. Oh boi. . It's been quite awhile to give you comment. Hey, What is it bugging you? Well, i guess, it's about the guy stuff? Hehe, like you're fear of something that you just normally Let it go? Umm, Alright alright, I'm just talking too much here. Later

Cambodian Daughter said...

Kelly, u made panharath blushed already! I don't think she worries about guy stuff, [or u do? Panharath]

I'm in being lazy state too, always! But here, we can handle that, can't we?

Sok Sabay said...

Hey girly girl. How do u know I'm talking about guy stuff? Okay i have to admit that u're right. Chlat mes pov? :P


@Sreypov: I sometimes do to be honest. lolzz

Lazy and stuck. Hmpphh!

Cambodian Daughter said...

Ha! U're in deep doo doo, now u're no longer innocent!

Chanvetey said...

Ha ha ha. What! I'm right? Humm. . . You Really ain't innocent!

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