Every times, I always think, think that we are only five and we have only five, five only. WHY??? Because my thought had already captured the letter of number 5 in enclosed brains. I almost forget that I have another 1, 1 must be included, no matter 1 had already vanished, not exist, no longer with me and won't ever present, but 1 is remaining, just I forgot to count. From now on, I should start to count, to add, to insert, to include… then, still, it become 6 again, although, 1 is completely ever unable to form or reform the exact physical figure or picture. Since that moment, I always thought 1 as 0. I amazingly surprised when I just realized how mean I am, how heartless I am, how come I forgot 1, how could I count 1 as 0. It’s exactly and obviously still 1, ever 1. I should be taken blame on.
Here again, I started to think about 1. With this one more hit of thought, it made me suddenly tried to gather up and restore back all those past which it’s gone, gone for quite long time, all the moment I had. But damn, I couldn’t remember all. All my brains had stored which only I do remember is the moment that you and I always argued over washing dishes. I just realized that I was just a brat, a cry-baby and a quarrelsome kid while you were always a very lovely kind, though you were just a little one. But for another moment, which I kept remembering is when, every night you and I always slept tight while kept hugging each other spontaneously like super glue, like both of us won’t be separated or no one could tear us apart, though we just had fight for an hour, a minute or a second ago, we still stuck to each other. I had no idea why. Perhaps, it’s something about blood-sister-strong bond or something, or it was just the way kids are?! However, I couldn’t help not to smile to those moments when it’s being reminded, and I couldn’t help not to put my smile down with those moments as well.
This time, I do miss you, I do and I really do.
It doesn’t mean I never missed you, I always did.
But just today is different.
Just today I just realized the true feeling.
Sometimes, the feeling of losing someone you love is really, really dreadful dream. It caused tons of gloomy sad and regret.
At that time, I should be older, I should be more aware of everything, not just being as a brat.
But, did you see that I changed?
I completely did.
I’m fully grown, you see?
And I’m gradually trying to become a sensible one, you know?
I don’t whether I could be or not, I’m just keeping on trying.
Hope you are always watching over me, our brothers, especially our folks.
I wish I will dream about you.
Here again, I started to think about 1. With this one more hit of thought, it made me suddenly tried to gather up and restore back all those past which it’s gone, gone for quite long time, all the moment I had. But damn, I couldn’t remember all. All my brains had stored which only I do remember is the moment that you and I always argued over washing dishes. I just realized that I was just a brat, a cry-baby and a quarrelsome kid while you were always a very lovely kind, though you were just a little one. But for another moment, which I kept remembering is when, every night you and I always slept tight while kept hugging each other spontaneously like super glue, like both of us won’t be separated or no one could tear us apart, though we just had fight for an hour, a minute or a second ago, we still stuck to each other. I had no idea why. Perhaps, it’s something about blood-sister-strong bond or something, or it was just the way kids are?! However, I couldn’t help not to smile to those moments when it’s being reminded, and I couldn’t help not to put my smile down with those moments as well.
This time, I do miss you, I do and I really do.
It doesn’t mean I never missed you, I always did.
But just today is different.
Just today I just realized the true feeling.
Sometimes, the feeling of losing someone you love is really, really dreadful dream. It caused tons of gloomy sad and regret.
At that time, I should be older, I should be more aware of everything, not just being as a brat.
But, did you see that I changed?
I completely did.
I’m fully grown, you see?
And I’m gradually trying to become a sensible one, you know?
I don’t whether I could be or not, I’m just keeping on trying.
Hope you are always watching over me, our brothers, especially our folks.
I wish I will dream about you.
I created a new id as kdrlwv@yahoo.com
See? It compounds our family members’ name. It’s a cluster of our family members, our 6 members.
See? It compounds our family members’ name. It’s a cluster of our family members, our 6 members.
Us!
6 of us! teehee
This cute crafts which I made with our younger brother.
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Today happiness is…
I discovered something, something inside which I just realized that it is obviously worth and remaining.
Happy happy happy
2 comments:
Well, Dear i do understand u... Yes it´s hard to 4get s1 that u love. And u gonna be missed.... Cuz he will in yr mind every s/c..
I wish u get him out of yr mind lolzz... Wish me too
Errr yeah... but what you said is a little bit out of topic. lolzzzzz Him 1 na tov??? Yab men
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