Sitting alone with a bunch of question marks??????????

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I don’t know what the heck is happening with me now.... I have no sense to do anything... I even can’t get my sense to focus in my work every well.

Everyday, I either don’t want to work or stay at home... Well, I also don’t wanna go out lolzzzzzzzz.... Hahaha.... These few months, I always stay in, without knowing the reason, I really don’t know what it is. I could feel myself is so different from what I was... Well, that girl probably has already died and re-born as a new lady who carried a bunch of the boredom and lonesome over her shoulder. lolzzzzzzz

The bad thing I ever did this long period is I never kept in touch with my friendz since i've been back... they all must get angry with me, they even don’t give me any a hint of sms lolzzzzzz.... that’s because of me as well, I rarely reply them back and I never say yes to go out with them... I missed them so much but I just feel don’t wanna go out. I’d rather choose to stay at home....

Almost everyday after leaving from work, I only drived along riverside to catch some fresh air with a beloved sister/best friend/co-worker of mine and then go back home before 7pm lolzzzzzz.... See? how is my life going? :D

For some strange reasons, I feel so bored... I couldn’t figure out the solution to save myself from this state of boredom. I did try! I tried hard to make myself active and enjoy my day, but It just couldn't work.

I somehow lack of something... something which I don’t really know what it is... Emptiness has found me. I have no idea what I have to do for this life.

Incomplete!!! Life has to be fun... and of course, I always have fun with bro and sis at work. We always laugh all the way we go. But still, I feel somehow so lonely.... lonely from deep inside, with no reason at all.

I hate being 20 and I can't imagine what I'm gonna be when I go further than 25!!! Arrrggghhhh I don't want it! *Sigh*I badly missed my childhood! Wanna be 16 once again! Wanna enjoy being a good student in my high school! It was such a great moment and full of fun.