October

I was planning to make October to be a month of gathering, meeting and hanging out with people, but forget it, it didn’t go with plan.

Just feeling the chilling wind and knowing the Fall has started and oh yeah, I have plenty of wedding to attend and my people to meet! And I gotta make it. I just looked at calendar, I don’t think I’ll travel that much for November, but who knows? it always happens in a blink of eyes. I just can’t plan my time. Crossed finger!

Nonetheless, October was good after all.

- It began by spending 2 days off on Pchum Ben with my ladies at SHV without those endless phone calls (In this point, I think I have sth new to update in my CV… particularly, like ‘Professional in picking up the phone calls’ Haha)



-Here comes, after I'm done with short holidays, I’ve been to some new provinces. Back & Forth. And do regular work.

-Every time I stayed in PP, esp during the heavy-rain-and-flood-everywhere time, I’d hear the knock on my door and mum asks, “Will you take the car or motorbike?” I went, “Yes?? Oh oh, motor!” then I heard she say, “Bring the car, the weather is not good, it might rains!”… I got up and went to see the sky, “Oh! Ok! But… mum, I’m not Salt anyway” And I felt so good.

-Glad to be done reading some books at the same time. And now it's time for break. Otherwise, my severe headache and crummy eyes will be worst.

-The other Sunday, I have one day to treat myself nicely. I drove to over there, over there and down there for the whole damn day with a choco shake in hand. And I get chance to do my ‘MMM’. Can't help! Finance crisis! Otherwise I probably end up walking around penniless.

-Last week I was in Steong Treng and I was lucky to join religious activities, Water Festive. They celebrated it after holy times (3 months of Jol Vorsa). I’m not sure what it’s called though. B.Thuch & I got ourselves a small light boat decorated with flowers and we floated them by the river in front of pagoda. And I just knew woman use this light boat to wish for husband! Ha-ha! Damn! Too late! I should have known! Haha. In fact, I didn’t wish for anything, though!!!


-And today, I’m in PP. Just back from Pailin and Preah Vihear last night and I'm gonna have training at Koh Thom in few hours. Only 2 more provinces! that I fulfill my wish of traveling around the 24 provinces in Cambodia.


BIRTHDAY!BIRTHDAY!BIRTHDAY!

I got a lot of best people in October! and I love them all.

-Bong Ratha
-Bong Rama
-Vattanak
-Kelly
-TinTin and
-Dad


May your all birthday be the beginning of your happiness!

I thought we could have a rendez-vous and wish a birthday in person! But maybe we could celebrate one-day-together-birthday, couldn't we?

How do you feel for being 20-something?


And this one, I dedicate to my Dad.
Happy Birthday To You!
I'm glad that I'm now able to do something little for you.
I'm glad at least, I have chance to do so.

nothing better than this... you feel just like the sun... just like the sun.

I couldn’t keep track of the vision of life recently. Each event, it comes and go. It’s like over there, over there and up there (I love this sentence a lot, cuz I watched this).

The thing is, in time like this, I’ve bumped into many new inspirations, realizations and thoughts in a way that I could say, I CAN FEEL IT. IT'S IN MY BONE. But the problem is I couldn’t get a hold of what flied into my mind and to put it into words.

Taken on the rice field, Takeo.

For instance, it happens often when you’re on the way to somewhere. I meant, when you see ‘that’, and then you start talking about ‘that’, you’ll just create 'that useful thought’ in your mind. I don’t know how it happens to others, but me. Especially, when being in a moment, when it reminds me the books I have read, which I gain more perspectives from those. You know when you read, you would stop and think about what it's written, but when you bump into a similar situation, or see anything related to, you’ll just get to understand in a profound way. At least, to me, it happens this way. I'm deeply inspired and excited about those new wisdom.

Every now and then, those books I’ve read really change the way I think, and it has a positive effect to the way I am. So would you tell what the books that change your perspective are? If you ask me, I’d say, I give two thumbs up for MITCH ALBOM… You’ll never know until you read one. Thank Nathary for the lending me one, and JenJen for recommending me other one and I’m glad Bong Lod interests and so into his books too.

Here the quote I just love a lot from "Have A Little Faith" by Mitch Albom:

1- "Having more doesn't keep you from wanting more"

2- "They aren't perfect, but they don't need improvement. Why? Because it means you are willing to accept people as they are. Nobody is perfect. Not even mom and dad. That's Ok."

3- "You can embrace your own faith's authenticity and still accept that others believe in something else."

Anyways, recently I’ve been blessed to bump into these great moments. I don’t know why, but I just incredibly love those moments I had recently.

1- I've developed such great sentimental mood when I was on the way to some places and we shared about everything related to that places. One thing leads to another, that’s how our days beautiful days went by, bubbling with fun and amazing conversation blah blah blah. Of course, they are decent conversations. It made me feel like a part of home and family. It reminds me this. Because it's like a new getaway, from everything in this complicated and messy world, power, materialism... and all you can feel, see, listen, and touch is nature, nature, nature over there, over there and up there, with new good talks about life and great laughs... which made me love a great simple life more and more... That's exactly what I want to feel. Profoundly. Warm. Happiness. Beautiful.

2- Talked and listened to each other experiences, thoughts and wisdom. And that was the very first time, in person, I’ve ever shared what in my mind, what books I read, what books that prove positive things to think about, what books that change the way i think, esp with right question, with the right conversation, with the right persons. That’s when I feel comfortable and relaxing.

What can I say? I just loves those moments.

when September ends...

… and knowing that October will come. The months which held the best memories I’ve ever had. Sweet and bitter. Best and worst. In-between September and October in last 3 years.

...last 3 years, I found my path of true self through many tough decisions and through a journey of disbelief. And this tough journey made me a person I am today.

...last couple years, no matter how, I’m so grateful, so loved, so amazed by how fate brought a very nice person to me... embraced by my uncle's personalities. But thinking I don't deserve him and i didn't know how to love, I just run away.

...last year, I was in a very new journey in finding pieces of my true self. Though I was not confident enough, though I was not sure if I chose the right path, but it’s what I chose and I have to face it. At least, I was lucky enough to make decision; to go for it and to be responsible for it. However, I just want to be encouraged that I've done the best I could.

...this year, what can I put it? it hasn't ended yet. but my only wishes are to meet up with people I wanted to meet. I want to feel my progress. I want to spend more time with family.

Just realized how I love Sep-Oct after all these year.

Stop and smell the flowers...

Not pretty much road trips, but i prefer to say that.
And below are the pictures which taken in one of my road trip, Pailin.

I can always have fun during my work trips.
I can always have fun with those massive headaches.
I can always have fun no matter what.

To check all photos, click here.

Beside works and staff meeting, from laziness of getting up, warm shower, breakfast, coffee, talking, laughing, driving, teasing, critique, calling, cursing while driving, music, singing along (howling), look for unknown places to go, photography, finding loo along the way (haha), calling, texting, talking, talking and talking about everything (from childhood, neighbor, religious, wisdom, future, parents, relationship, friendship, careers, personal view, to general matter… blah, blah, blah), photography, saying ‘oooh and aahh’ to this and that, accept calls, ignore calls, waiting calls, wandering, sneaking out for fun, photography, talking to strangers, stop and smell the flowers, sneaking to people’s farms & fields, capturing, massages, dinner, talk, laugh, surfing, emailing and sleeeeeeeeep.

The only unpleasant and very disturbing thing is I HAD TO accept endless calls and evoucher-ing to staffs, no matter what time and whatever I was doing. I HAD TO PICK IT UP! DAMN!

Update: This week is scheduled for beach sides. KK/SHV/KP/VR/SA in a row and I'm looking for more info of Tatai... we planned to have a peek there and spend a day and night there.

I feel worst today, but tonight, thinking all about road trips i had, I’m feeling better.

been there, done that…

taken on the way to Kampot

Pretty much there's a feeling of enjoyment out of nowhere, but inside me.
Because of the current shot I'm in.
Because of where I've been and what I've done.
And I seem to pay less attention to whom I'm with.

There's a warn...
I was told I'm being missed.
I was told I'm like a thousand mile away.
I was told if I could give a little time for people I've never had time for.
I was told to think about who I'm with while I'm doing it.

pathetic

Listen to: Diane Birch
Mood: Not that great. I know what I feel. I'm just not sure whether I really ought to be feeling it.
Do you think human being is pathetic?
Out of blue, regarding with human being, the closer I look, the more I find it very pathetic.

Taken at Prek Kampi, Kratie

with hope and faith.

with expectation.

with everything we greed about.

with silly and absurd ideas we make up.

with craziness we can’t get it over with.

with vulnerabilities we're unable to show.

with all the sadness we're unable to let it go.

with those happiness we unable to hold a bit longer.

with emotional existences we allow ourselves to sleep in.

with stupid ideas for others’ attention.

with those scenes and we have to play our parts.

with every pretending we simulate.

with our anxiety that stir our serenity.

with inabilities to be consoled or comforted when in doom and gloom.

with all those surge of feeling we struggle to fight.

with strength and courage that take a hell out of us to muster.

with those weaknesses we can’t figure out.

with all the strong parts we exert a great deal of force and effort to grow.

with those fortuitous coincidences in commotion.

with those ignorance we need a hell of time and experience to get rid of.

with other person’s love to fulfill our happiness.

with being unable to be contented in within by ourselves, but others.

with etc… etc… etc you name it.

most of all, with all the reasons why we are to be alive.

But what to make it more pathetic is, even though, we acknowledge those facts, we don’t seem to know how to chase it away.

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Work hard, play hard…

This is the concept we got from our client on our very first trip for work together… which, as to our surprise, is what we always do. We actually know how to have fun for whatever situation we’re in.

Here is the most exciting and relaxing road trip for work ever last week. I didn’t remember when the last time I went to beach, but this time was exceptional. To make up for all, I went to 3 beaches in a row. SHV, KP and KK. The most touching part is when we spent a night at Nataya Resort in KP. With the super natural views and fresh cold breeze, plus the round Bali style room we slept in, I felt so relaxing, exciting, worry-free and less headaches with problems I face. I really enjoyed staying there which made me appreciate the idea and concept of the owner. We had dinner and talked and laugh. We are crazed over photo-taking. We enjoyed chatting with the Filipino and Cambodian-France, very tall yet big guy, who I assumed that he’s the owner, which is actually son of the owner. At night, I couldn’t help but fell in love with the moon, which I couldn’t resist taking in the spa-like bathroom outside the room and enjoyed watching it. The moon looked really great, along with many shadows of coconut leaves (Pictures later). I wish I could stay there forever. Well, a best recommended place to stay for honeymoon.

The day we’re in Koh Kong, after we’re done with our staffs’ meeting, we went to Prei Koang Kang. Before going there, we’re having breakfast. And that’s when Jeje and I really had a great laugh over our client’s staff who went there with us for market visit. I somehow found that he's not that flirtatious, but he's very humble. I like him.

Well, there’re about 6GB for all the photos we took. Jeje and I make a great pair when it comes to something fun like this.

Just finishing upload pictures. To see more, you can click here.

Updated: Thought I have to pack again for going trip this weekend with my uncle, Bee and Belle.... but hmmmmm... stuck with work again. Nonetheless, I have to pack for the next round trip in the same 8 provinces in this upcoming week.