- In recent days, I'm working on a piece of so-called scrapbook. I’m doing one for Bong Phirith’s BD which is coming on this 2nd. I put much effort on doing it day by day. It’s been a week now and it’s still not yet done. I need to find more pieces of materials and accessories. lolz. I determined to get it done by this weekend. By working on this scrapbook, it made me forget everything while doing it. It’s good, though. Mum shook her head and said, “You started messing up your room with cutting and sticking those junk papers again.” and I was like, “Yes. Please don’t touch my things ok?? Let it’s scattering like that. I will clean it out when I’m done.”
- Well, Today, Work are DONE! And I’m too feeling a little bit recovered from those worst unsteady days. I hope for a long nap this weekend. Today I unlocked and freed myself from everything. I was thinking about taking a pause for a short while or taking leave for a day. It’s been a year that I’ve never taken leave or been on holidays while others always enjoy their break. But nothing to compare with my hard-working lady, my Ms. Perfect. She’s under more million-stresses than I do. She missed her several holidays and works no day or night. She’s too terrific for word. Well well well... Weekend is rolling on, so better come to work as usual. lolz. This Monday is going to be another start. [Big sigh]
- Plans never go with hands, I don’t know why. It’s hard to identify. Maybe because I put so much hopes without realizing the realistic. I lost my hope. All hopes. I’m trying to learn to control myself from being so excited with what I expected wish to come. Ones told me that it’s obviously been proven that I’m so naive and so young to understand and to be independent. I lack of judgment when I gave mark on something. I can’t leave from my comfort zone. I can’t stand on my own. My every decision is grounded on others, especially on my uncle and my cousin. I depend on them. I believe in them, because they are sophisticated person. If they tell me, don’t go there, I won’t! lolzz That’s so bad.
Well, I don’t know. It’s too much for me now, just too much. It’s just too tiring. I decided to stay still. I decided to stay where I am. And I’ll just go with the flow.
- At work, to be honest, I really want to kick someone’s ass and squeeze the neck and ask, “What’s the heck are you thinking? We’re trying our best, don’t you see??? Swear to god, I’m so sick of you, do you know that? Everyone is really sick of your freaking stupid act! You should open your eyes wider and see what the hell we are doing is just for you own sake. YOUR OWN SAKE!!! Please remember! If you don’t know nor want to neither support nor encourage us, just shut you freaking mouth up! Leave us alone rather than just being a drama queen. Please kindly stop bitching around! Don’t try causing trouble and stop stirring us! That’s too much to bear! Why don’t you just go hand in hand to improve something we are running? It’s just for your own sake! Not for us! I’m tired of being kind to you!”
God help me, I’ve never thought that I could come up with such things. But it’s unbearable and I think I should let it out sometimes. I can’t hold in. It’s been years! Well, who know? I would speak it out in person and leave someday when it’s reached up. I wish I could be blunt to that person! I wish I could make it.
I can’t think of anything just now. It’s so miserable. I’m looking forward for the change.
CHANGE! CHANGE! CHANGE!
1 comment:
Well, to answer your questions for real: I know a good place to buy those bookie, do you know D's book shop! It's nearby Monument book shop too. They sell used books, of course. And it's cheap...It freaks me out, if you say you don't know it.
good luck my friend.
catch ya later.
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