24 It is not just number!

And I like the number.

I think the older we get, the wiser we become. We grow more tolerant, more good-humoured, more easily able to handle our own problems and to give good advice to others. Well, that's the theory. In practice? It is not so simple. Open-mindedness is probably more a quality of youth than of age. It is not experience that makes us wise, it is a 'willingness to learn'. That is something we can have - or fail to have - at any point in our life.

I wonder what it takes to look at yourself, really look and be okay with what you see.
I suppose, Happy Birthday to me.

I’m 24 turning 25. I’m better than I was 23.
And I'm willing to learn more and open myself to be more mature and wiser.

Each year, I'm growing more and more grateful to all my people, who always make me feel so loved and precious and regardless of age -- young.

Years grow, people comes and goes. "You're the same today as you'll be in five years, except for the people you meet and the books you read." So goes the old saying. And I noticed my life changed in every stage of 5 years. Each year, I tend to look back and missed my all people who came in my life, but then went far away, who made me feel special the same way. But let me tell you something. Memories remain.

And my life is about to change again, except this time someone will be by my side forever.
I'm so looking forward to celebrate my very first day together with my wonderful man.

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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

The year of Dragon!

I believe most Chinese people wish to have Dragon babies by this year! The Dragon is one of the most wanted zodiac animals. Umm… even though I’m not sure why. But I can tell Chinese just love dragon. My best friend and I’ve always wanted to have Dragon son since we were in high school too. She loves dragon because she’s a dragon herself and I love Dragon because I love Dragon boy! Only because I noticed that they’re mischievous creature! That’s all.

Anyway, my birthday fell on Feb after Chinese New Year, so according Chinese Lunar Calendar, I’m one of a Dragon people! Too bad I’m not a boy. But according to Khmer calendar, I’m a Rabbit! I don’t like the fact that I’m both Rabbit and Dragon though! A brother once told me, “Don’t be upset. Instead, you’re blessed with powerful Dragon body and a smart Rabbit head!” I delighted just to hear that though. Haha.

I don’t believe in Zodiac indeed. Because the more I know about their superstitions and beliefs, I find it more ridiculous and in disbelief! For instance, my ex-big boss--who is a Singaporean, told me that Tiger people are not desirable people for Chinese, especially Female Tiger. Female tigers are not allowed to attend weddings because they believe they would bring bad luck to couple. Can you believe that? What on earth!

My family mostly were born in Rat, Rabbit, Dragon, Monkey and Pig. Because of their zodiacs, I want my kids to be born in those years too. Simply like that!

But remember, we have both positive and negative traits! Agree with it or not, I would say, the things we’ve done, the places we’ve been to and thick-and-thins we’ve gone through are the only things that make us become US today! And the beautiful and amazing people are the ones who know how to carry it all along!

A whole new chapter and another lifetime journey.

People say it’s a transformational process and I think it is.




By stepping out, I have learnt that it is possible to trust myself. I have been humbled by the sheer big-ness of the world and just how much I can get in exchange for 2 feet; 2 hands and an open mind. I’ve spent my times trading in little scraps of myself for the right to be acknowledged. But now if you’ll excuse me, I would like to stop compensating my existence where you play your role with your wizard because something tells me that this is not my reality.

Despite of “Zemblanity”, I have seen “Serendipity” at its best, turning strangers into lifelong friends and brief moments into lovely bond that no amount of time or distance would ever quite erase. A momentary, somewhat random act of kindness of fate and universe, led me to a man who continues every day to be pretty awesome, even to a whacked-out cynic like me, whom I adore very dearly and whom I’m going to marry in no time. I can't even begin to explain how fortunate I feel this year with my family, my awesome man, my friends and this universe.

I have walked some and am the better for it. I am the same but yet different. I have experienced myself at my best and at my worst. I have dug deeply and honestly within myself and come away scraped and raw, but I survived. I would like to tell you that it is perfectly safe. Except it’s not. That it’s possible to go ahead, knowing all the odds. Except it’s not.That you will never lose your way, because you will, once more than once. That it would never hurt. Except it will, over and over, like a bitch. But still I say go, go where the heart leads because that’s the only way to really live.