People say it’s a transformational process and I think it is.
By stepping out, I have learnt that it is possible to trust myself. I have been humbled by the sheer big-ness of the world and just how much I can get in exchange for 2 feet; 2 hands and an open mind. I’ve spent my times trading in little scraps of myself for the right to be acknowledged. But now if you’ll excuse me, I would like to stop compensating my existence where you play your role with your wizard because something tells me that this is not my reality.
Despite of “Zemblanity”, I have seen “Serendipity” at its best, turning strangers into lifelong friends and brief moments into lovely bond that no amount of time or distance would ever quite erase. A momentary, somewhat random act of kindness of fate and universe, led me to a man who continues every day to be pretty awesome, even to a whacked-out cynic like me, whom I adore very dearly and whom I’m going to marry in no time. I can't even begin to explain how fortunate I feel this year with my family, my awesome man, my friends and this universe.
I have walked some and am the better for it. I am the same but yet different. I have experienced myself at my best and at my worst. I have dug deeply and honestly within myself and come away scraped and raw, but I survived. I would like to tell you that it is perfectly safe. Except it’s not. That it’s possible to go ahead, knowing all the odds. Except it’s not.That you will never lose your way, because you will, once more than once. That it would never hurt. Except it will, over and over, like a bitch. But still I say go, go where the heart leads because that’s the only way to really live.
By stepping out, I have learnt that it is possible to trust myself. I have been humbled by the sheer big-ness of the world and just how much I can get in exchange for 2 feet; 2 hands and an open mind. I’ve spent my times trading in little scraps of myself for the right to be acknowledged. But now if you’ll excuse me, I would like to stop compensating my existence where you play your role with your wizard because something tells me that this is not my reality.
Despite of “Zemblanity”, I have seen “Serendipity” at its best, turning strangers into lifelong friends and brief moments into lovely bond that no amount of time or distance would ever quite erase. A momentary, somewhat random act of kindness of fate and universe, led me to a man who continues every day to be pretty awesome, even to a whacked-out cynic like me, whom I adore very dearly and whom I’m going to marry in no time. I can't even begin to explain how fortunate I feel this year with my family, my awesome man, my friends and this universe.
I have walked some and am the better for it. I am the same but yet different. I have experienced myself at my best and at my worst. I have dug deeply and honestly within myself and come away scraped and raw, but I survived. I would like to tell you that it is perfectly safe. Except it’s not. That it’s possible to go ahead, knowing all the odds. Except it’s not.That you will never lose your way, because you will, once more than once. That it would never hurt. Except it will, over and over, like a bitch. But still I say go, go where the heart leads because that’s the only way to really live.
2 comments:
You're officially a grown up in no time. Good luck with your future wifehood and motherhood. Can't wait to see you become a Neang Neak! Hehehe...your Preah Thong is so going to hold your hem that day. Lol....
I love to be Neang Neak and the girl in "Chbab Srey" hehehehe
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