Silence has its use

Right now, I’m not in mood of music like I’m always, but silence. Because I keep thinking about the shadow of a girl who entered my office, my co-worker told me about a moment ago, which make me goosebumps sometimes, and because I keep sneezing which I lost the counts and I wanna be silent just to listen to the sound I sneeze, sneeze and sneeze and the rings of remembering running in and out mind right now. Because of the silence itself has brought me a lot of things to think about, just to forget about the ghost things at this late hour, which make me push aside my works I’m doing. So right now I’m thinking about:

- My inspirations.
- My two-bit determinations.
- About how I really want to try new recipes at home.
- About how much I want to bring to grandma to my uncle's house to visit her little grand-daughter .
- About how much I want to cleanse my room and my closet.
- About topic of marriage we always had on table at home, which I want to talk about it over and over again, which I want to make them understand about me.
- About my past experience which make me become who I am.
- About all the encouragements I’ve got from my beloved ones that I should be a person to be proud of.
- About everyone who so much always care about me, but I’m careless about them. About people who I care the most, but she doesn’t really do and I have to commit to be selfish at time. Because I’m leaning to care about myself, and care about people who care about me.
- About a dear sister’s wedding next month. About how much I want to help her.
- About some old people whom I do respect and some old people I’ve just met. They are great.
- About a dearest sister who is going back to State this 29th and I just hung out with her only one time since I’ve been busy with my own stuffs.
- About my family who I hardly see their faces since I’ve always offed from home from dawn to dark, from Monday till Sunday and every time I reached home at night, I have to be in room to do my translations.
- About a dearest sister who I hardly make her talk her heart out about what she has and hides in mind, what the troubles she’s facing nowadays.
- About my peers who gave up sms or called me because I’ve rarely replied and they said it’s hard just to meet me. As in fact, I missed them and I just... Well, I have no idea either. I think I want to tell them to keep in mind that this does not indicate that I'm growing apart; it's just that I need a lot more personal space now than usual. Because I have special opportunity to learn something about who I am if I can find some time to be by myself.
- About my very very old and closest friend from primary school who always gives me hundred missed calls every night and day, even every times he goes to his loo at night, he also gave me a ring just to bother my sleep and just to let me know he’s doing his loo. And I so much want to kick his ass for bothering me. I wanna spend time to talk with him about his girlfriend, about every fun things and the things to share. I want to bring him to have his hair-cut and nag about how awful he is with his so-gay hairstyle, and so much I want to have a very loud talk and argument and laughter with him, which always make my throat turn dried.
- About my long lost kindergarten friend from CCF, who just called a week ago, to meet up this week, but I completely forgot.
- About many new people whom I haven't met and want to meet and have fun time with.
- About the things I would regret just because of what I am doing.
- About many stacked-up things I have in my head to write about, but I can’t, and I’m afraid I forget.
- About people who I didn't know I hurt them, but knowing that is not my faults at all. So they hurt themselves.
- About many things to think about, which are not tangible, which I’ve forgotten just now.
And
About how to manage all of these...