My birthday was 3 days ago. So I’m 23 turning to 24. I don’t like the number, I tell you. heehee... Will anyone care to tell me how it was like being 24, 25 and 26? I want to know. I wish I could have done something I want to do, but well, I’ve now grown addicted to the things I’m doing. It’s non-stop and there’s no point of turning back. And I care no more.
Well, nothing comes out from my losing brain. And I feel like everything around me is losing but I tempt to get attached with the current busy life. It’s been years I said it a lot to my people, “Sorry, I’m busy” which concerns me that I might end up living in this life forever which I don’t want to. Because I want to see the light until I reach the end of the tunnel. I’m still walking in it. No light. And. Pretty dark. When I bump into something, like wall and it hurts a lot, but there’s nothing I can do but keep walking and finding ways. It’s pretty sick.
Despite of everything, people do have some moments for themselves.
So I still have fun and lovely times and happiness.
What has in store for me this year? I don’t know. But I want to achieve the things I’m trying to do. I’ve never achieved anything in life, but knowing I’m trying my best, I still want to do more and know more and learn more and fail more and hurt more and hope more and especially, love more. I want to experience all those things a person who I’m looking up to goes through.
And I love these songs a lot.
Well, nothing comes out from my losing brain. And I feel like everything around me is losing but I tempt to get attached with the current busy life. It’s been years I said it a lot to my people, “Sorry, I’m busy” which concerns me that I might end up living in this life forever which I don’t want to. Because I want to see the light until I reach the end of the tunnel. I’m still walking in it. No light. And. Pretty dark. When I bump into something, like wall and it hurts a lot, but there’s nothing I can do but keep walking and finding ways. It’s pretty sick.
Despite of everything, people do have some moments for themselves.
So I still have fun and lovely times and happiness.
What has in store for me this year? I don’t know. But I want to achieve the things I’m trying to do. I’ve never achieved anything in life, but knowing I’m trying my best, I still want to do more and know more and learn more and fail more and hurt more and hope more and especially, love more. I want to experience all those things a person who I’m looking up to goes through.
And I love these songs a lot.
*** At KGC for works and family matters. Right now, I think a lot about my dad, my uncle, and my bestie.
5 comments:
When I read your passage,"Because I want to see the light until I reach the end of the tunnel. I’m still walking in it. No light. And. Pretty dark. When I bump into something, like wall and it hurts a lot, but there’s nothing I can do but keep walking and finding ways."
I think about Persephone the goddess of flowers who was punished to live in the underworld, she had to walk through the darkness, through rocks and iron ore, but when she finally found the way out to world again, it's spring time. All the flowers blossom, the nature just welcomed for Persephone after all those hardships.
I think you're like Persephone. When you're out of the tunnel, the world will be beautiful just for you.
It's truly inspiring of how you describe about Persephone which I don't know where you got it from. Don't you think everyone is like Persphone, even you?
It's a Greek mythology,yes, I do feel like her sometime. And the way you wrote your feeling down is just like you're living a life of Persephone, too. It's really something...you know.
:)
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