I wish I could say "YES!"
Yes because I want to explain.
Yes because I don’t want to live in this hard feeling.
Yes because I just want to release.
Yes because I just want to escape.
Yes because I want to clear the air.
Yes because I want to be back home.
I’ve been spending my weekend at home and sleep, sleep and sleep. So that everyone won’t ask me how’s thing going, about this and that. So that I don’t spill thing out. So that I won’t become a queen of babble. So that things won't go worst than it is.
But now I’m here to face another worst day. How long will it takes?
It's a really hard feeling.
It’s just so hurtful.
I hate dealing with it.
I’ve been talking to my love ones and they said, “Dear, come back home! We’d rather having you here!” and after I hear it, all I want to do is cry, cry and cry.
I just realized that I’m such a cry baby.
And I can't believe I’ve cried for her for many times already.
She makes me high and she’s also the one who makes me low, very low.
I just don't know why she likes taking everything as assumption?
But I learn one thing for it.
Sometimes we don't need to try fixing things, we won't know how worst it's gonna turn out.
2 comments:
I want to hug u for that, if I could. I know u've been under a lot of pressure lately. But again, cry when u must, laugh when u can, we're like an union, remember? We can't escape those feelings even we're all fully grown.
I just wonder why u let her did that to do? Put urself first then someone else next, can u do that?
I don't know if she has some kind of power over u this much, but it sounded like that to me. Maybe, it's hard to have a person who is really a big influence in our lives but I hope u know when to stand up for urself. U gotta pretend that u're strong, really strong! And eventually, u'll be.
I've missed u so much. Hope u're okay! *hug*
Yes she has such a power and influence on me. I find it hard to pretend i'm strong in front of ppl i know and I love. But i'll build myself stronger. ;)
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