Halloween is coming - If only, I would be…

IF I was there, I - from today - might start looking for my new costume from store to store, or maybe I’m going to use my old costume.
IF ONLY!

It’s been a year already. How’s time flying so fast? Well, it’s my wish though. For every times I always wish time to be fast forwarded. But it sometimes highly and totally amazed me when it’s running too fast. Candidly, I’m not really sure whether I want time to move that fast or not. Or maybe only whenever I fell in doom or filled with the sense of impending doom, so I simply wish I could skip it by fast forwarding the time. But while I was enjoying with something or lost myself in blissfully happy moment, I wished to stop this world from spinning, or at least, I just wished for a little more minutes or hours - just a little bit more – so I can keep the joyful moments with me. I guess everyone also wish the same. But I just decided I want time to run fast, so that I can know what the next is and what is going to happen. Because I hate being stuck in one place!

Back to what I supposed to write about is, Halloween, perhaps, on 31st - as I remember so far. No Halloween here and also not going to have too. It had me remember my last year Halloween in Riverbank.
I went to JCpenny looking for my costume. But I couldn’t find any outfit which looks really nice at all. So Bong Khim and I went to a store in Modesto – I don’t remember the name. Everything about Halloween is available in that store, range from Halloween costume to Halloween decoration. When I stepped in that store, I felt I stepped to the world of demons. Yeah maybe I was amazed by those Halloween decoration and all the sellers are in Halloween costume. Well,
I wanted to be a Witch. I don’t know why I love being in Witch’s costume. I do want! I do want! But I couldn’t, since that store had run out of nice Witch’s costume. Only kids’ costumes are available, and of course, it looked not nice at all. So I changed my mind. On that Halloween night, I was in black dress, putting on slightly make-up with a little bit bolder shimmering purple eye shadow with curly hairdo. Oh, I wore a pair of black wings with a faked-magic-stick holding in my hand. Let’s picture it, if you can guess what costume I was in, or can’t you? If you can guess, I will give you a big kiss! lolzzz

Well, I was a black fairy angel! Hah! At that time I was thinking, “Hmmm… not nice at all! Not nice at all! Look very simple! I should be looked something like - SCARY” But you know what? Instead of what I was thinking, all people were looking at me and nudged one another and all the kids were running toward me and exclaimed, “Awww mum, is she black fairy angel?” and their parents said, “Yes honey, she is” and they said to me, “Sweetie, you’re beautiful and your wings are nice.” I replied, “Oh yeah! Thank you, thank you!” But on Halloween’s day, I should decorate myself like ghost or sth – sth that can scared the crap out of people! [Evil laugh]

Before I was off from house down to the street, walking from house to house beg for candy, I waited at the door for kids to knock and asked for candy. They are soooooooo cuuuuuuuuuuuute! Most of time, I asked them, “If you can guess what costume I am in, I will give you more candy, sweetie, deal?”… Ahhh, I just couldn’t believe those little wee cutie could make a guess, except some smallest kids, two or tree years old, who couldn’t. Hah Hah!

Walk walk walk! Sooooo tired, my knees were about to break (Geez! My wings are not magical, otherwise I could fly!), but much fun of course. Ohhh, someone scared me to the death by hiding herself in her costume somehow like a scarecrow (Not sure if it’s the right word) and sitting without saying a word and I just thought that was only decorated scarecrow. But when I asked a girl who was standing next to that scarecrow for candy, she was ok and told me to take those candies in a tray in front of that scarecrow. After saying thank to her, without any hesitation, I reached for the candy. Omg! A scary hand of that scarecrow caught mine! I lost myself in frightening! Gosh, I was about to have heart attack! They were laughing like hell! They said sorry and they just wanted to have fun. Well, well, well, it’s ok, but this fun would send me to death to see demons, the guardians of hell! OMG! I had many nightmares on the following nights, no doubt, about ghost of course.

Hah! You know, I got a lot candies, a bag of bon-bon and mostly are chocolate. teehee… I love CHOCOLATE!!! You can stop me from eating anything, but not chocolate! I also would kill you for a chocolate bar! Hah!

Everyone gave me all bon-bon they got. They know that I do love chocolate. hahaha I was feeling myself like a queen living in a château of bon-bon and chocolate! lolz

I do miss that time. That was my first time and probably also my last time of wearing Halloween costume and it was such fun time. I wish I could go back to that time again. Well, If only when this world could reversely spin around, or If only I had time machine in my hand!

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I remembered when I was just back, I was curiously willing to share the every little thing I had to everyone I love, especially her, but she seemed not interest in what I was trying to share. Maybe I talk too much? Or it’s just non-sense humdrum boring things I always talk about? She didn’t question, she didn’t wonder, or asked about anything and not showed the least interest on the story I shared. Well, well, well, it just always happens most of time of this daily life. It becomes as a habit already, isn’t it? I think I’m capable enough for getting those feeling and I accustomed to it, didn’t I? Listening is becoming one of my habits while I’m happy to do so. Yeah, that’s why I’m here to post

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It might means nothing to you, but it means something to me.