My wishes for you,
Great start for Jan,
Love for Feb,
Peace for March,
No worries for April,
Fun for May,
Joy for June to Nov,
Happiness for Dec,
Have a lucky and wonderful 2010!
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Thursday, December 31, 2009
2010
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
I was tagged again.
When I first saw Nathary title, my eyes was about to pop out and I was like, “O.M.G! Are you kidding me?” Because I know after reading her facts, there will be my name she tagged. lolz So here that’s how it done....
1. I’m on my way to be 22 soon. I never accomplished anything, even on education.
2. So I don’t achieve high education. When i got chance to work, i just worked.
3. I soon turn to be 22, but there are many not-yet-grown parts of me should be overcome.
4. People said being the oldest is hard, but I love being oldest and only daughter in family. I like the feeling of responsibility.
5. But I sometimes think I deserve to be the youngest in family, and my both younger brothers should be my older brothers. They’re more thoughtful than me.
6. I promise too much. My brother told me.
7. I love mum, but most of time she worries a lot, talk a lot and care a lot. But that’s I love about her too and I know I’m going to be like her one day.
8. I love dad. I feel sorry for making him work hard to feed us. I should be the one who does this responsibility.
9. If you want to get the list of laziest people, count me in.
10. I can’t stand with smell. Both too-much-perfume smell and bad smell.
11. I don’t like waiting, and I hate myself when I keep s.o waiting.
12. I have many fears. The biggest fear is making any mistake that disappoint people I love.
13. I don’t like being tickled in annoying way.
14. I love chocolate. I love Ice cream. I love dumpling.
15. I don’t like the taste of bitter foods.
16. I prefer the cleanness of tidy room, but I hardly keep mine in tidy.
17. I’m a lousy cook, though I love and enjoy cooking.
18. I’m always interest in something I don’t know. When I know, I might leave it afterward.
19. I love reading. It’s only a good habit of me.
20. I’m clumsy and reckless. It’s a bad habit of me.
21. I always feel lucky to be loved.
22. I have impulsiveness and procrastination habit to work out.
23. I love people and I want them to love me too. But I don’t get hurt if they don’t.
24. “I believe!” is my motto.
25. If I had the chance to start everything again, I would do almost everything differently.
26. I’m such an emotional freak. When I’m happy, I’m extremely happy. When I’m sad, I’m extremely sad.
27. I hate discipline. I do hate. I hate like being told what to do and what not to.
28. But there are times I want to put rules for myself and I want to be told. But not too much or I will be like, “I don’t give a damn!”
29. I used to have big dream of going to Paris and speak French, but now I forget all French. Paris? I don’t think I ever have chance.
30. I also have a passion to become a French teacher and a pharmacist. But dream never come true. I’m always caught up with something I don’t like.
31. I love being in cool place rather than in hot place.
32. I love blanket. I love cool room and sleeping by warming myself with thick and soft blanket. I wish I could afford for air-con one day.
33. I love books. I want to have a small room full of books.
34. I addict to coffee. But I have to reduce it because of health concern.
35. When I distress, I like singing out loud and dancing like crazy alone in room.
36. I start doing thing only at last minute.
37. I never wanted to be born in rich family which my parents can provide me everything. I think it’s not a good way of living. I want to live by my own. Create something out of nothing by my own.
38. I don’t like being with mean people. I’ve had enough of them.
39. I’m bad with financial management.
40. I’m suck with direction.
41. Whenever I’m about to leave somewhere, all I need to spend time to find is KEY.
42. My bag is always full of garbage. I call it garbage bin.
43. I’m not good at holding grudge. But sometimes I do.
44. Since young, I was like a tomboy, but I knitted. And I still love knitting and yarning.
45. There are two secret passions I wish I could make it. First, learn to cook variety of recipes and second, learn to tailor dress. I want to make dress.
46. I fail at remember things. I love the moment when people start telling me like, “You know when you were....”
47. I don’t like talking much, but when I do, I talk a lot.
48. I’m not good at entertaining foreigners. I’m dumb at it.
49. But I like storyteller. I like hearing something new, amazing, sad and all.
50. Talking long hour on phone is not my thing.
51. I was told when they first met me, they said I was such a strut. As in fact, I was always too shy to talk.
52. One thing no one knows is I easily cry. Cry over sappy movies, cry over sad books, cry over little thing that hurt me.
53. Just like Nathary, There are many times, I wish I was dumb and deaf.
54. High-five Nathary, I don’t speak Prada too. lolz
55. When I’m fed up and mess up, I tend to eat a lot especially spicy food or Ice-cream.
56. People love diamonds and gold, but I prefer silver and stone. I wish I could get a set of Amethyst.
57. I love receiving gift, but I’m not good at giving . That's not fair i know. lolz
58. I tend to be too vague and indecisive.
59. I’m not smart enough, but I’m not stupid. Honestly, sometimes I like pretending to be stupid. And it become as a habit.
60. I’m not that flexible.
61. Most of time, I always analyze people I meet. But no more. I try not to analyze any situation or anyone.
62. I have absent-minded.
63. I’m a daydreamer.
64. I often have mood swings, but mostly I hold it inside.
65. I’m not a materialist. But ipod is a must.
66. I found sth about myself which is so annoying is that I barely give a simple ‘Yes’ or ‘No’. Mostly my answer is ‘Maybe’.
67. I love music. I love all kind of genres range from oldie to R&B, except Hip-Hop. Life is boring without music.
68. Secretly I like the sound of Billy Currington. So masculine.
69. I used to have this secret in mind since I was young. I wanted to find a man which has the same quality and personality as my uncle. A real man of men.
70. But I don’t mind if I can’t get someone like him. And Grandma warned me, “Don’t ever go for a mean guy! A big no-no!”
71. I quickly get annoyed, easily provoked, and become impatient very quickly.
72. I recently have this question in mind. Do people value each other people by their success, their accomplishment, their wealth, their intelligent, their ranks, their greatness and all?
73. I’m a kind of person who just allows things to happen. I am too proactive at times and at other times, I'm way too inactive. And even if I can't do something, I still feel like I should be.
74. I love lingering in the morning by watching TV while I’m drying my hairs and dressing up. And I’m now so into Cartoon again. Tom and Jerry.
75. I like spending time talking to closest ones and sharing about how our day was going. Those closest persons are my family.
76. I love when the sun goes up but I hate when the sun does down, which is why I barely leave office around 5-6pm.
77. I don’t like being a girl. I wish if I were a boy.
78. I was told I have a bad habit of gawking at attractive girls for too long. Some people used to mistake me as a lesbian.
79. Some people dream a lot. But I don’t. I dream once in a while.
80. When I sleep, I do sleep and Zzzzz till I wake up.
81. When I obsess, I do obsess.
82. When I focus on one thing, I don’t know what’s going on around me or hear a sound of anything.
83. I prefer comfortable clothes. I like Tees and Short or Knee length pants. I don’t care about the big scar on my calf. But mum and grandma don’t like it.
84. Oh but now I tend to love wearing skirt. But only skirt which attached with pants inside. lolz
85. I everyday analyze and learn from people traits and personalities. I learn a lot from certain people. But I have hard time to correct my bad.
86. I don’t have any particular ability. I secretly wish I could paint or play any specific music instrument.
87. I love singing and dancing thought I’m bad at that.
88. Sometimes I know that person somehow across the line. But I pretend to be fine. I know there’s always a certain reason behind. But everyone has their own limit.
89. Sometimes I pretend to be innocent. [High-five Nathary]
90. I’m a good listener. But I don’t prefer to listen to your brag.
91. I hate being the center of attention. But I do not like being left behind either.
92. I don’t like the feeling of being left-out.
93. I more enjoy being alone, but sometimes I need company too.
94. I now don’t drink wine even take a sip, except cocktail. Since I used to drunk once, I swore myself to god not to have any drop of it.
95. I’ve grown up with Buddha principles in mind. So I do believe Buddha.
96. When I was young, Grandma told me to pray and salute the pillow before sleeping. I’ve been practiced that way long after we moved out the old house, I never. But now I start practicing again.
97. There are conservative sides of me. For instance, I don’t interest in being relationship as boyfriend and girlfriend before getting married.
98. But there are times I want to fall in love. I want to feel the feeling of falling in love once in my life.
99. For me, everything is nothing, but nothing is everything.
100. I’m Panharath and these 100 facts are about me. Thank for reading and sorry if this very long facts make your eyes hurt. lolz
I don't know who I should Tag. If I tag Nathary, Jessica and Kelly, they must do another 100 facts again! lolzzz
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Merry Christmas Y'all!
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1. I’m on my way to be 22 soon. I never accomplished anything, even on education.
2. So I don’t achieve high education. When i got chance to work, i just worked.
3. I soon turn to be 22, but there are many not-yet-grown parts of me should be overcome.
4. People said being the oldest is hard, but I love being oldest and only daughter in family. I like the feeling of responsibility.
5. But I sometimes think I deserve to be the youngest in family, and my both younger brothers should be my older brothers. They’re more thoughtful than me.
6. I promise too much. My brother told me.
7. I love mum, but most of time she worries a lot, talk a lot and care a lot. But that’s I love about her too and I know I’m going to be like her one day.
8. I love dad. I feel sorry for making him work hard to feed us. I should be the one who does this responsibility.
9. If you want to get the list of laziest people, count me in.
10. I can’t stand with smell. Both too-much-perfume smell and bad smell.
11. I don’t like waiting, and I hate myself when I keep s.o waiting.
12. I have many fears. The biggest fear is making any mistake that disappoint people I love.
13. I don’t like being tickled in annoying way.
14. I love chocolate. I love Ice cream. I love dumpling.
15. I don’t like the taste of bitter foods.
16. I prefer the cleanness of tidy room, but I hardly keep mine in tidy.
17. I’m a lousy cook, though I love and enjoy cooking.
18. I’m always interest in something I don’t know. When I know, I might leave it afterward.
19. I love reading. It’s only a good habit of me.
20. I’m clumsy and reckless. It’s a bad habit of me.
21. I always feel lucky to be loved.
22. I have impulsiveness and procrastination habit to work out.
23. I love people and I want them to love me too. But I don’t get hurt if they don’t.
24. “I believe!” is my motto.
25. If I had the chance to start everything again, I would do almost everything differently.
26. I’m such an emotional freak. When I’m happy, I’m extremely happy. When I’m sad, I’m extremely sad.
27. I hate discipline. I do hate. I hate like being told what to do and what not to.
28. But there are times I want to put rules for myself and I want to be told. But not too much or I will be like, “I don’t give a damn!”
29. I used to have big dream of going to Paris and speak French, but now I forget all French. Paris? I don’t think I ever have chance.
30. I also have a passion to become a French teacher and a pharmacist. But dream never come true. I’m always caught up with something I don’t like.
31. I love being in cool place rather than in hot place.
32. I love blanket. I love cool room and sleeping by warming myself with thick and soft blanket. I wish I could afford for air-con one day.
33. I love books. I want to have a small room full of books.
34. I addict to coffee. But I have to reduce it because of health concern.
35. When I distress, I like singing out loud and dancing like crazy alone in room.
36. I start doing thing only at last minute.
37. I never wanted to be born in rich family which my parents can provide me everything. I think it’s not a good way of living. I want to live by my own. Create something out of nothing by my own.
38. I don’t like being with mean people. I’ve had enough of them.
39. I’m bad with financial management.
40. I’m suck with direction.
41. Whenever I’m about to leave somewhere, all I need to spend time to find is KEY.
42. My bag is always full of garbage. I call it garbage bin.
43. I’m not good at holding grudge. But sometimes I do.
44. Since young, I was like a tomboy, but I knitted. And I still love knitting and yarning.
45. There are two secret passions I wish I could make it. First, learn to cook variety of recipes and second, learn to tailor dress. I want to make dress.
46. I fail at remember things. I love the moment when people start telling me like, “You know when you were....”
47. I don’t like talking much, but when I do, I talk a lot.
48. I’m not good at entertaining foreigners. I’m dumb at it.
49. But I like storyteller. I like hearing something new, amazing, sad and all.
50. Talking long hour on phone is not my thing.
51. I was told when they first met me, they said I was such a strut. As in fact, I was always too shy to talk.
52. One thing no one knows is I easily cry. Cry over sappy movies, cry over sad books, cry over little thing that hurt me.
53. Just like Nathary, There are many times, I wish I was dumb and deaf.
54. High-five Nathary, I don’t speak Prada too. lolz
55. When I’m fed up and mess up, I tend to eat a lot especially spicy food or Ice-cream.
56. People love diamonds and gold, but I prefer silver and stone. I wish I could get a set of Amethyst.
57. I love receiving gift, but I’m not good at giving . That's not fair i know. lolz
58. I tend to be too vague and indecisive.
59. I’m not smart enough, but I’m not stupid. Honestly, sometimes I like pretending to be stupid. And it become as a habit.
60. I’m not that flexible.
61. Most of time, I always analyze people I meet. But no more. I try not to analyze any situation or anyone.
62. I have absent-minded.
63. I’m a daydreamer.
64. I often have mood swings, but mostly I hold it inside.
65. I’m not a materialist. But ipod is a must.
66. I found sth about myself which is so annoying is that I barely give a simple ‘Yes’ or ‘No’. Mostly my answer is ‘Maybe’.
67. I love music. I love all kind of genres range from oldie to R&B, except Hip-Hop. Life is boring without music.
68. Secretly I like the sound of Billy Currington. So masculine.
69. I used to have this secret in mind since I was young. I wanted to find a man which has the same quality and personality as my uncle. A real man of men.
70. But I don’t mind if I can’t get someone like him. And Grandma warned me, “Don’t ever go for a mean guy! A big no-no!”
71. I quickly get annoyed, easily provoked, and become impatient very quickly.
72. I recently have this question in mind. Do people value each other people by their success, their accomplishment, their wealth, their intelligent, their ranks, their greatness and all?
73. I’m a kind of person who just allows things to happen. I am too proactive at times and at other times, I'm way too inactive. And even if I can't do something, I still feel like I should be.
74. I love lingering in the morning by watching TV while I’m drying my hairs and dressing up. And I’m now so into Cartoon again. Tom and Jerry.
75. I like spending time talking to closest ones and sharing about how our day was going. Those closest persons are my family.
76. I love when the sun goes up but I hate when the sun does down, which is why I barely leave office around 5-6pm.
77. I don’t like being a girl. I wish if I were a boy.
78. I was told I have a bad habit of gawking at attractive girls for too long. Some people used to mistake me as a lesbian.
79. Some people dream a lot. But I don’t. I dream once in a while.
80. When I sleep, I do sleep and Zzzzz till I wake up.
81. When I obsess, I do obsess.
82. When I focus on one thing, I don’t know what’s going on around me or hear a sound of anything.
83. I prefer comfortable clothes. I like Tees and Short or Knee length pants. I don’t care about the big scar on my calf. But mum and grandma don’t like it.
84. Oh but now I tend to love wearing skirt. But only skirt which attached with pants inside. lolz
85. I everyday analyze and learn from people traits and personalities. I learn a lot from certain people. But I have hard time to correct my bad.
86. I don’t have any particular ability. I secretly wish I could paint or play any specific music instrument.
87. I love singing and dancing thought I’m bad at that.
88. Sometimes I know that person somehow across the line. But I pretend to be fine. I know there’s always a certain reason behind. But everyone has their own limit.
89. Sometimes I pretend to be innocent. [High-five Nathary]
90. I’m a good listener. But I don’t prefer to listen to your brag.
91. I hate being the center of attention. But I do not like being left behind either.
92. I don’t like the feeling of being left-out.
93. I more enjoy being alone, but sometimes I need company too.
94. I now don’t drink wine even take a sip, except cocktail. Since I used to drunk once, I swore myself to god not to have any drop of it.
95. I’ve grown up with Buddha principles in mind. So I do believe Buddha.
96. When I was young, Grandma told me to pray and salute the pillow before sleeping. I’ve been practiced that way long after we moved out the old house, I never. But now I start practicing again.
97. There are conservative sides of me. For instance, I don’t interest in being relationship as boyfriend and girlfriend before getting married.
98. But there are times I want to fall in love. I want to feel the feeling of falling in love once in my life.
99. For me, everything is nothing, but nothing is everything.
100. I’m Panharath and these 100 facts are about me. Thank for reading and sorry if this very long facts make your eyes hurt. lolz
I don't know who I should Tag. If I tag Nathary, Jessica and Kelly, they must do another 100 facts again! lolzzz
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Merry Christmas Y'all!
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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
End
I’m not entirely sure what’s going on around, but I think I don’t let that bother me too much. Just a very short period of time, I let those bewilderments get my head stuck in the clouds. How long will it takes to set me back? I duno.
This year kick off with a great start by giving me such great joys, but it ends up with a very painful experience with a lot of mistakes.
So new year is coming, I’m also one of those who think about New Year resolutions…
The first thing I can think of right now is on my daily basis which is self-improvement.
Isn’t it everyone’s obsession?
And the next thing is learn to keep my mouth shut.
Not to spill a thing. Learn to keep it inside.
Btw, I wish I could make everything up again.
Wish is just a wish.
Oh, what are the places for people to go on Christmas with pals? I want to go somewhere WILD.
And where should I go for family gathering? I’ve had it in mind. I should bring them out once. At least it’s the end of the year and plus, it’s my youngest brother birthday.
Plan is always changed. And I’ll see.
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This year kick off with a great start by giving me such great joys, but it ends up with a very painful experience with a lot of mistakes.
So new year is coming, I’m also one of those who think about New Year resolutions…
The first thing I can think of right now is on my daily basis which is self-improvement.
Isn’t it everyone’s obsession?
And the next thing is learn to keep my mouth shut.
Not to spill a thing. Learn to keep it inside.
Btw, I wish I could make everything up again.
Wish is just a wish.
Oh, what are the places for people to go on Christmas with pals? I want to go somewhere WILD.
And where should I go for family gathering? I’ve had it in mind. I should bring them out once. At least it’s the end of the year and plus, it’s my youngest brother birthday.
Plan is always changed. And I’ll see.
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I talk to...
I talked to him, he said “Don’t lose yourself! Don’t lose faith! Don’t lose hope!”
I talked to her, she said "I wanna go back home! I want to have personal time!"
I talked to him, he said "I love her!"
I talked to her, she said “He and me had decided to get married next year!”
I talked to other him, he said “I miss you. When can we go out sometimes?”
I talked to other her, she said “Now I’m single and available.”
I talked to another him, he said “Dud, are you alive?”
I talked to another her, she said “Don’t quit! Be yourself!”
I talked to another him, he said “Where’s your old self?”
I talked to another her, she said “Only you who can decide!”
I talked to another him, he said “You’re less talkative. Or you don’t want to talk at all?”
I talked to another her, she said “Oh shut up! You’re so talkative. Queen of Babble!”
I talked to myself, I said, "DAMN ME!"
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I talked to her, she said "I wanna go back home! I want to have personal time!"
I talked to him, he said "I love her!"
I talked to her, she said “He and me had decided to get married next year!”
I talked to other him, he said “I miss you. When can we go out sometimes?”
I talked to other her, she said “Now I’m single and available.”
I talked to another him, he said “Dud, are you alive?”
I talked to another her, she said “Don’t quit! Be yourself!”
I talked to another him, he said “Where’s your old self?”
I talked to another her, she said “Only you who can decide!”
I talked to another him, he said “You’re less talkative. Or you don’t want to talk at all?”
I talked to another her, she said “Oh shut up! You’re so talkative. Queen of Babble!”
I talked to myself, I said, "DAMN ME!"
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Saturday, December 19, 2009
Hope abides; therefore I abide...
..... Countless frustrations have not cowed me.
I am still alive, vibrant with life.
I believe and still believe that,
the black cloud will disappear,
The morning sun will appear once again
In all its supernal glory.
- Author Unknown
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Being in Dec
All friends and people I love are born in December.
All inspired thought come through my head in December.
Think I have too much update recently. But who cares? I just want to write as I got nothing much to do. So I now try to come up with something to do, which I don’t know now, or maybe a little while later, I will figure out, hopefully.
It’s utterly restless when I don’t have something to keep myself busy, besides reading book and e-book. It’s not an easy feeling when you live your everyday doing nothing like this. That's suck.
But I have plenty of times to have a lot of talk with my family. Isn’t it nice? At home, there’s a load of thoughts pop up in mind and we do talk a lot about career-education-finance and marriage. Oh yes, marriage. It’s such a heat topic in my family forum now. HEAT.
I think I'm so alone after all. I thought I'm not. But no. Not anymore. Or is this just what stirring inside me? I don't know. I don't put this blame to people I care. I think it's all happening inside of me. The within battle.
But I'm really tired of listening to people. I wish I was a deaf. So we don't need to do listening things. And what If I cannot speak at all? So that I don't need to do talking thing. So that I can keep my big mouth shut. Not to spill any secret. Not to talk too much and all. And all I have to do, perhaps, is writing letters. You know, as far as I think, non-verbal communication might does the best job of expressing.
Okay, I guess I need a correspondent now who I can write to and who is good at keeping secrets. lolzz Isn't it nice if we have someone we can write letter back and forth?
Btw, I have number of books I tempt to finish and sure enough I can’t finish by the end of this December. Maybe because they’re mostly E-books. No afford for paper books. lolz. Suck.
Oh, there's two books which are highly recommended which I'm currently reading.
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All inspired thought come through my head in December.
Think I have too much update recently. But who cares? I just want to write as I got nothing much to do. So I now try to come up with something to do, which I don’t know now, or maybe a little while later, I will figure out, hopefully.
It’s utterly restless when I don’t have something to keep myself busy, besides reading book and e-book. It’s not an easy feeling when you live your everyday doing nothing like this. That's suck.
But I have plenty of times to have a lot of talk with my family. Isn’t it nice? At home, there’s a load of thoughts pop up in mind and we do talk a lot about career-education-finance and marriage. Oh yes, marriage. It’s such a heat topic in my family forum now. HEAT.
I think I'm so alone after all. I thought I'm not. But no. Not anymore. Or is this just what stirring inside me? I don't know. I don't put this blame to people I care. I think it's all happening inside of me. The within battle.
But I'm really tired of listening to people. I wish I was a deaf. So we don't need to do listening things. And what If I cannot speak at all? So that I don't need to do talking thing. So that I can keep my big mouth shut. Not to spill any secret. Not to talk too much and all. And all I have to do, perhaps, is writing letters. You know, as far as I think, non-verbal communication might does the best job of expressing.
Okay, I guess I need a correspondent now who I can write to and who is good at keeping secrets. lolzz Isn't it nice if we have someone we can write letter back and forth?
Btw, I have number of books I tempt to finish and sure enough I can’t finish by the end of this December. Maybe because they’re mostly E-books. No afford for paper books. lolz. Suck.
Oh, there's two books which are highly recommended which I'm currently reading.
1- Blink by Malcolm Gladwell
2- Secret About Life by Barbara De Angelis
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Thursday, December 10, 2009
Twilight
Everyone love Twilight. Except me. Not that I don't like, but I haven't yet read.
But several days ago, I was really curious about Twilight.
So I've been doing some search through Google and read the first chapter on the official website, thinking I'm into it now. I've called Nathary to ask her if I can get the books somewhere, but forget it, it costs at least more than $50 for 4 books at Monument book shop. So I do some search again for ebooks, though I don't like the idea of reading with pc or laptop.
But luckily, I got it by accident the link of Twilight saga from a site I forget the link. hehehe... I think I might have to read ebook this time. But still I'm thinking of buying paper books also. Maybe when if I can afford. lolz
Here I share the link to anyone who wants the ebook of Twilight by clicking on these images below.
But several days ago, I was really curious about Twilight.
So I've been doing some search through Google and read the first chapter on the official website, thinking I'm into it now. I've called Nathary to ask her if I can get the books somewhere, but forget it, it costs at least more than $50 for 4 books at Monument book shop. So I do some search again for ebooks, though I don't like the idea of reading with pc or laptop.
But luckily, I got it by accident the link of Twilight saga from a site I forget the link. hehehe... I think I might have to read ebook this time. But still I'm thinking of buying paper books also. Maybe when if I can afford. lolz
Here I share the link to anyone who wants the ebook of Twilight by clicking on these images below.
- Twilight
- New Moon
- Eclipse
- Breaking Dawn
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
December
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Hihihi December!
You know what it comes to my mind knowing it’s December? Yeah, Alvin and The Chipmunks song suddenly pop up in my head, “Christmas Christmas time is near, time for joy and time for cheer!...” Okay, not that I’m into Christmas-thingy nor I’m a Christian, but just I used to have fun on Christmas last two year. And what I know about the true meaning of Christmas is time for LOVE.
Okay, that’s enough about Christmas.
I love December anyway.
Not because it’s great month of all. No. Just that December has constantly been a recovering month, or at least, to put it more correctly, it’s a month of struggling. Like last 2 years, I was in the middle of painful situation and trouble which I had to choose whether to give up or go for it, but then everything is fine when I end it by giving up. The reason? I don’t want to be a burden on someone’s life. I was told, "Don't quit. You have wasted a lot of time and energy for it." But no, I finally chose to quit! And here I am! In middle of other trouble.
I suddenly realized, "Oh well, trouble has no its end!"
Last year, I’ve also learned another inch to become a human being. And this year, yep, I think I’ve grown another inch and figured out a ton of things as well as a lot of mistake I made which I have to look at and correct. Well, at least, isn’t it for the best I can be as a human being, though I don’t like the progress at all. But I honor them anyway.
On top of that, I learn a lot from people. All the negative points I noticed and I try to balance myself not to be like one, while I’m having many to be figured out. It’s not that easy to scan our mistakes or any negative points of ourselves every minute. We can’t be imperfect. We really can’t. But I’m just restless. I just want everything fine. But it’s not as what I thought. Is it wrong to view this world in good way? I was told I’m too much to see this world full of roses. And there’s a voice keep bugging me, “Come on, live in reality, girl! Not in your own world!”
Well, whatever!
So now, I’m utterly inspired by a book, but still haven’t finished yet. A book which help me prepare to lift my spiritual growth. People seek how to develop their power their fame their popularity as I’m seeking to grow my spirit to be happy within myself, to avoid all suffering. Okay, I can’t be like Buddha after all. But at least, to save me from a number of suffering.
Like right now, I’m still in suffering! No, I’m actually recovering. Though I don’t have a chance to clear it up. Though It’s such a mess. But at least, it's not that tense. But I know everything can't be back like it was. A great bond of sisterhood.
Well, whatever! I won't go into the detail.
But I've committed myself to pretend that all is fine. How did I get on? Did everything that wasn't fine, suddenly become fine, just through the strength of pretense? I thought sometimes when we draw a veil over an issue that we would prefer not to look at or think about, we store up trouble for later. Sometimes too, though, we simply save ourselves from a lot of unnecessary worry. If we have been easily able to ignore a situation, the chances are that we are safe to leave it a while longer. If not, we had best look at it again.
Still, there’s something I learn from this situation. Learn to be patient. Learn to pretend. Learn to remain myself. Moreover, Learn from that certain person that I won’t take everything as assumption, I won’t try to analyze someone or any situation, I will still keep the thought that there’s always a certain reason behind everything. Okay, I still keep my positive thought.
So people come to your life to teach you something. And here, a phrase I keep on my mobile display every time:
It's a good way to keep myself in control. At least, for me.
So..
By the way, Happy Birthday to J.Nha
To an old woman who is such a dear sister to me. lolz
To her who barely talk her heart out, but I see her wear her heart upon her sleeve.
To her who I rarely have time for her, and her who doesn't even have time for me, but we run to each other when we have trouble.
To her who has a really good heart for everyone.
To her whom we have such memory together.
To her who I love.
All well-wishing go to you J.Nha. Hope your dream are fulfilled. But don't forget me or you will die!
Hihihi December!
You know what it comes to my mind knowing it’s December? Yeah, Alvin and The Chipmunks song suddenly pop up in my head, “Christmas Christmas time is near, time for joy and time for cheer!...” Okay, not that I’m into Christmas-thingy nor I’m a Christian, but just I used to have fun on Christmas last two year. And what I know about the true meaning of Christmas is time for LOVE.
Okay, that’s enough about Christmas.
I love December anyway.
Not because it’s great month of all. No. Just that December has constantly been a recovering month, or at least, to put it more correctly, it’s a month of struggling. Like last 2 years, I was in the middle of painful situation and trouble which I had to choose whether to give up or go for it, but then everything is fine when I end it by giving up. The reason? I don’t want to be a burden on someone’s life. I was told, "Don't quit. You have wasted a lot of time and energy for it." But no, I finally chose to quit! And here I am! In middle of other trouble.
I suddenly realized, "Oh well, trouble has no its end!"
Last year, I’ve also learned another inch to become a human being. And this year, yep, I think I’ve grown another inch and figured out a ton of things as well as a lot of mistake I made which I have to look at and correct. Well, at least, isn’t it for the best I can be as a human being, though I don’t like the progress at all. But I honor them anyway.
On top of that, I learn a lot from people. All the negative points I noticed and I try to balance myself not to be like one, while I’m having many to be figured out. It’s not that easy to scan our mistakes or any negative points of ourselves every minute. We can’t be imperfect. We really can’t. But I’m just restless. I just want everything fine. But it’s not as what I thought. Is it wrong to view this world in good way? I was told I’m too much to see this world full of roses. And there’s a voice keep bugging me, “Come on, live in reality, girl! Not in your own world!”
Well, whatever!
So now, I’m utterly inspired by a book, but still haven’t finished yet. A book which help me prepare to lift my spiritual growth. People seek how to develop their power their fame their popularity as I’m seeking to grow my spirit to be happy within myself, to avoid all suffering. Okay, I can’t be like Buddha after all. But at least, to save me from a number of suffering.
Like right now, I’m still in suffering! No, I’m actually recovering. Though I don’t have a chance to clear it up. Though It’s such a mess. But at least, it's not that tense. But I know everything can't be back like it was. A great bond of sisterhood.
Well, whatever! I won't go into the detail.
But I've committed myself to pretend that all is fine. How did I get on? Did everything that wasn't fine, suddenly become fine, just through the strength of pretense? I thought sometimes when we draw a veil over an issue that we would prefer not to look at or think about, we store up trouble for later. Sometimes too, though, we simply save ourselves from a lot of unnecessary worry. If we have been easily able to ignore a situation, the chances are that we are safe to leave it a while longer. If not, we had best look at it again.
Still, there’s something I learn from this situation. Learn to be patient. Learn to pretend. Learn to remain myself. Moreover, Learn from that certain person that I won’t take everything as assumption, I won’t try to analyze someone or any situation, I will still keep the thought that there’s always a certain reason behind everything. Okay, I still keep my positive thought.
So people come to your life to teach you something. And here, a phrase I keep on my mobile display every time:
“What has this person been sent to teach me? What quality am I lacking in this moment that is making me suffer? Patience? Tolerance? Or else? Ok, I don’t have to react. I can remain centered.”Don't you think it's nice to remember?
It's a good way to keep myself in control. At least, for me.
So..
By the way, Happy Birthday to J.Nha
To an old woman who is such a dear sister to me. lolz
To her who barely talk her heart out, but I see her wear her heart upon her sleeve.
To her who I rarely have time for her, and her who doesn't even have time for me, but we run to each other when we have trouble.
To her who has a really good heart for everyone.
To her whom we have such memory together.
To her who I love.
All well-wishing go to you J.Nha. Hope your dream are fulfilled. But don't forget me or you will die!
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Storm one minute but blue sky's the next.
Several days ago, I was tense, I was worried, I was stress, I was afraid I might have another big storm big clash again. If it had ever happened once again, I might be a dead meat right now, but thank God, we could make it in the end.
Well, that’s the day of a storm one minute but blue sky's the next.
So here some pictures of the team for a launching party. Ok, I have to say thank to Danny who helps me with the speech and program flow at last minute.
That’s the day of Bong Mab’s birthday. Our December guy.
Bong Ny and I got a jean for him. So sad that we don’t have birthday cake for him from Daily Shop in InterCon as we planned. Why? Because we had no time to go down and buy one. But no, the major reason is we run out of money. lolz
So...
Happy Birthday to Bong Mab.
To him who is calm as a lake.
To him who is good at putting up with things.
To him who is an understanding one.
To him who I hardly believe he’s that easy and comfortable one ever exist in this world.
To him, for the best and worst, I can be opened to.
To him, who is a trustful one.
To him who I much consider as a brother as well as a sister.
Oh we can be twin if he had a lighter complexion. lolzz
Okay, He’s the best.
And all the best wishes to him.
Well, that’s the day of a storm one minute but blue sky's the next.
So here some pictures of the team for a launching party. Ok, I have to say thank to Danny who helps me with the speech and program flow at last minute.
That’s the day of Bong Mab’s birthday. Our December guy.
Bong Ny and I got a jean for him. So sad that we don’t have birthday cake for him from Daily Shop in InterCon as we planned. Why? Because we had no time to go down and buy one. But no, the major reason is we run out of money. lolz
So...
Happy Birthday to Bong Mab.
To him who is calm as a lake.
To him who is good at putting up with things.
To him who is an understanding one.
To him who I hardly believe he’s that easy and comfortable one ever exist in this world.
To him, for the best and worst, I can be opened to.
To him, who is a trustful one.
To him who I much consider as a brother as well as a sister.
Oh we can be twin if he had a lighter complexion. lolzz
Okay, He’s the best.
And all the best wishes to him.
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